Do Not Give Me The Power To Harm You.

Please don't.

I never ever work hard enough I never work hard enough I always feel sick I always feel so fucking sick it's awful it's awful it's awful it's awful I hate it I hate it I hate it I never do anything I have so much time and I should be doing something useful I should be doing something useful and instead I'm just being miserable and stupid and I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad because everything is sad all the time all the time it's sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad I wanted to help I wanted to be useful I wanted to do something with what I've been given and I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm sad I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless and everyone hates me because I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting it's my fault its my fault its my fault

I'm so sad so sad so sad sad sad everything is awful everything is awful awful awful everyone hates me and I'm a disgusting fucking monster and I've failed everything and I'm stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid I just wanted to make things I wanted to make videos and I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I failed I'm a monster I'm a monster I'm a monster I'm a monster I made everyone hate me its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault its my fault

I failed everything I failed everything I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless

I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm fucking goddamn fucking disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting

I'm disgusting I'm a fucking repulsive disgusting fucking awful monster I'm a monster I'm a monster I'm a fucking disgusting evil horrible fucking monster I'm a monster I'm a monster I'm a worthless lazy fucking monster I never fucking keep my promises I never fucking do anything I'm fucking disgusting I'm fucking fat fucking repulsive disgusting putrid fucking waste of fucking flesh all I do is fucking sit and fucking gorge my fucking grotesque fucking walking rotting fucking corpse my fucking stupid fucking horrible fucking body I'm fucking repulsive I'm repulsive I'm fucking repulsive I'm fucking repulsive I'm repulsive I'm fucking repulsive I'm fucking repulsive I'm fucking repulsive I'm fucking disgusting fucking repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm fucking disgusting I'm fucking worthless I'm fucking evil I'm disgusting disgusting I'm fucking disgusting disgusting disgusting worthless fucking freak of fucking worthless fucking disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting it's my fucking fault its my fucking stupid fucking fault I'm fucking disgusting I'm disgusting I'm fucking goddamn fucking disgusting I'm fucking goddamn fucking repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive

I DESERVE TO FUCKING DIE I DESERVE TO BE FUCKING MUTILATED I DESERVE TO BE FUCKING RAPED AND FUCKING STRUNG UP FOR THE FUCKING MAGGOTS I FUCKING DESERVE TO FUCKING ROT IN THE FUCKING SEWERS IM FUCKING DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING

I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I don't fucking deserve to fucking live I'm a disgusting putrid fucking stain on fucking humanity I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm fucking repulsive I'm fucking goddamn fucking repulsive I'm disgusting I deserve to fucking die I deserve to die I deserve to fucking goddamn fucking die I'm fucking disgusting I'm disgusting I'm repulsive I'm fucking putrid I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm fucking goddamn fucking disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting disgusting

I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive

I'm a traitor to my community I'm a traitor I'm a traitor I'm a traitor I'm a traitor I'm a traitor I'm a traitor I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting I'm disgusting

Everything is horrible it's horrible it's awful everything is awful everything is ruined my mouth is ruined my brain is ruined my heart is ruined my thoughts are ruined my personhood is ruined I'm ruined everything is ruined it's ruined it's ruined it's ruined it's ruined it's ruined it's ruined it's ruined it's ruined everything is ruined everything is ruined forever there's poison everywhere there's poison there's so much poison there's so much poison poison poison poison poison poison in everything in everything in my mouth there's poison in my mouth in my ears in my eyes in my head there's just poison poison poison poison nothing but poison there's nothing but poison there's nothing but poison there's nothing nothing nothing nothing but poison poison poison poison poison poison poison poison I can't get it out of my mouth I can't get it out of my words I can't get it out of my head I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out I can't get it out

I just want to die I want to die I did everything wrong I did everything wrong I was given so many chances to change I was given so many chances and I didn't and now I ruined my body again I ruined my personhood again I ruined my voice I ruined my mouth I ruined my brain I ruined my brain I ruined my brain I ruined my brain I ruined my brain I ruined my brain I just want to die I want to die I want to kill myself I want to kill myself I want to kill myself I just want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die i want to die I want to die

I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive

I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive

I'm a disgusting person I'm a disgusting putrid person I'm repulsive I'm disgusting I'm horribly disgusting I'm disgusting I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive I'm repulsive

All I fucking care about is fucking thin validation I don't fucking care about actually doing anything I don't fucking care about actually making anything or doing anything the only fucking thing I ever fucking care about is fucking stroking my fucking ego if I ACTUALLY cared about what I was doing if I ACTUALLY cared about anything other than my fucking stupid fucking ego I would be WORKING ON LITERALLY ACTUALLY ANYTHING BUT NO INSTEAD IM FUCKING LAYING IN BED GORGING MYSELF TO DEATH AND DOING FUCKING NOTHING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING IM DISGUSTING

I'm repulsive I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I never do anything I'm lazy I'm lazy I'm lazy I'm lazy I'm lazy I'm lazy I'm lazy I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful I'm ungrateful