mcdonald sprite lobotomize me

#i was just thinking about this... its so fucking funny and oddly heartwarming... but also GOD that must've been terrifying for jax#i'd like to think that caine genuinely had no clue too#like what does caine know about gender and transness really#he's an ai from 1996 you think any of the devs put that data in him?#i bet looking up zooble and jax on the internet was the first time he ever really understood that stuff#he looked in jax's head and said 'wow this bitch got issues! give her a pretty room with pastel blues and pinks and rainbows STAT'#really said 'my coding says embracing femininity will make her happier' and he was so fucking right#THE PROBLEM: jax got clocked by a fucking computer when she was NOT ready to come out#do you think after the internet thing caine came back and remembered what he did to jax's room#and he was just like 'wow! i tortured these humans in ways i wouldn't believe!'#COUGHS#nah we were robbed of the funniest duo ever give us jax back so she can thank caine and then punt him across the room

The OBSESSION with identity is so crazy like the view that when you do something it immediately becomes part of your identity and all the parts of you have to click together to become “person who wakes up early” or “person who reads” no you can literally just do something without restructuring your whole performance of personhood around it. I don’t know what to tell you except that you will never be able to have an entirely unfractured view of yourself or that you will be able to rationalize all the complex parts of yourself into the phrase “person who x” like you should just be doing things without performing them. Or aestheticizing them. Just try different things on and keep what works for you. Otherwise you will never learn and grow!

WE NEED TO START TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT BIGENDERISM

seeing people say “sometimes i wish i was a guy but i still want to be a girl too” or vice versa and it’s like YOU CAN!!! YOU CAN DO THAT!!!! TAKE MY HAND

Unironically I think the early to mid 20s age group in America has unbelievably bad consent boundaries on all levels and so much language to defend it but this makes me sound like elon musk if I say it however the commonality of someone who will be like “I had 47 panic attacks and it’s your fault” if you tell them no is insane

I rejected someone and got called “the scariest person I’ve ever met” with so much therapy speak interspersed like alright okay alright okay alright okay

“You just say whatever you’re thinking and I don’t know how to handle it” was verbatim part of this conversation. Also everyone hates to see an autistic bitch

i was born weird and i will die fucking weird

i need to fuck hudson williams so bad it makes me look [remembers negative self talk is bad] earnestly sincere and open to the innumerable beauties of the world

i need to fuck hudson williams so bad it makes me look completely sane

Yeah, it's time to get this post out again

One of the most pernicious illusions the internet creates is that things need to reach a large number of people quickly in order to matter. The opposite is true. Culture is created through social connections - and stable social connections are built slowly. New subcultures and art styles need to move at a slow and stable rate of growth, or they’ll collapse under their own weight before they reach full maturity.

i was born weird and i will die fucking weird

really recommend getting a partner with a different religion than you and very little knowledge of your religion because the opportunities for explaining things to each other are just exquisite

yesterday she told me some story about the Buddha's wife and child and I was like. Wait. He fucked? And she was like yeah of course he fucked, why wouldn't he, he was the most attractive and loveable and and wise and etc. person who ever lived. why would he not fuck.

this morning she looked perplexed in the kitchen at me and said "did Jesus not fuck?"

ice water is awesome because you get more water in your water

you think youre out of water but then you check back in five minutes and woah! theres more water! the world is so beautiful

Conservative beauty standards are back with a vengeance which means it's especially important to go out this summer with bellies out and bodies unshaved. Also be unapologetically disabled with mobility aids and wearable medical devices and stim toys and ear defenders and all that stuff. You need it. People need to see it. Everyone needs to be reminded that life is unquestioningly more enjoyable when you're not living inside an arbitrary set of rules created by people who are offended by all the wrong things.

And go out with a mask on since it's disability pride month and pretty much every disability makes you higher risk for hospitalization and death from respiratory illnesses. This goes triple if you're not disabled! It's more than reminding people that we exist, it's people who aren't us standing up and making the world a safer place for everyone!

masking is genuinely such second nature to me that I forgot to mention it in the og post but yes, mask! I'm partial to the BNX N95 masks because of their price and fit. I have pride in being disabled but I wouldn't choose long covid and CFS if I could go back.