self hatred central

its my birthday on thursday the idea of growing up scares me so much i'll be an adult soon and that's terrifying i cant grow up i wanna be a little kid again

havent used this blog in forever but god i feel so alone im so so so so alone no one talks to me or cares about me

im ayyy uhh getting high 2night babes :)

after i meet gerard is when i'll finally do it lmao no one needs me or cares abt me anyways :/

oh god i can't breathe im gonna fucking kill myself i probably did something to make u hate me god why did u block me??

im uhhhhhh rlly fucking wanting to die have a nice day

i just might u know no one would rlly miss me or care that im gone :/

why the fuck do I even bother trying to be happy and love myself?? i rlly should just kill myself tbh :/

literally nothing is making me happy rn!!! i hate it

im fuckin uhh big sad and i hate myself!!!! bitch wtf

im so sick of being yelled at for not understanding something. im so sick of being yelled at for feeling human emotion. im so sick of being yelled at for expressing that human emotion. im so sick of being yelled at.

do i kill myself or run away?? hmm

to the left you'll see me receiving tough love which then makes me cry

every1 leaves me eventually why do i ever both

im so so so gross

im gonna b sick i have only 1 person who cares about me and i need people but no one wants me god im so gross and ugly and worthless