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why did I feel vacant in filled spaces. im emotionally shut down. my longing for sanity was merely treaded by weary thoughts and transgressions. one day i will be okay.

im numb but not that numb, i wanna fall harder into the abyss of destruction. why do i keep falling back into the loop. Help me.

my sweet orb… I’ll do my best to protect you. although im not alright, your happiness is all I care about. blind me from insanity my sweet orb.

i don’t know how to feel. I want to cry but after crying I still feel sad. the manuscript in my brain is damaged. my parts are missing and I’m entering insanity.

the plane of emotion took off. the numb feeling is turbulence. may it land safely or it’s a long cycle of insanity. please land plane, I just want to be okay.

i find myself being on autopilot for most of the time. it’s easier to fully dissociate and live in my thoughts pleading for sanity.

was it over? the comfort of my damaged boy gone? was once a beautiful home now a damaged nightmare. fuck i miss him.

it’s the part of me that thinks it will get better but it’s the familiarity that keeps me comfortable. i can start fresh and hope for a better ending or self loath in my warm damaged hole.

I've been processing feelings and emotions for days. my subconscious has been ripping the manual script pages to my brain