untouchable & beautiful & completely dead inside

You sound like you’ve never had the scent of cigarette smoke ingrained in your clothes to the point where people in middle school thought you smoked at eleven because your parents couldn’t be bothered to go outside. You sound like you’ve never had your mother flick cigarette ashes out of the car window and have them fly into your face. You sound like you’ve never been kept up at night by the sound of your dad hacking up a lung because he has to get up for his midnight smoke. You sound like you’ve never had to run into a convenience store to get your mother cigarettes as soon as you turned eighteen and cringed at touching the box because you know they’re not only killers but government sanctioned killers because they can not only tax the shit out of them but ensure people buy more at the cost of young lungs and a once beautiful home now plagued with the smell of smoke and ash. You sound like you’ve never had a great grandmother who stopped smoking 30 years before her death who still got lung cancer and subsequently died. You sound like a Fucking ignoramus. Smoking isn’t Fucking cool, it isn’t fun to glorify, it’s disgusting and makes not only you but your children smell bad. Makes not only you but your children cough, get cancer, get sick.

I remember you telling me when we first started talking that you liked dogs over cats, and I saw somewhere that dogs usually like you no matter what while cats will make you earn their affection, and I know you’re used to every girl fawning over you. Maybe somewhere along the line you realized this and that’s why you gave up on cats. Maybe that’s why you gave up on me.

I’m so upset by society. I’m angry at the world we live in and I’m angry at what people have to go through everyday and I’m angry at the amount of ignorance there is in this world. I tell myself over and over again that I will make a change. I will grow up and get the right job and work hard to make a difference in this world. and anyone that says I can’t, just fucking watch me.

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