unfiltered

i wouldn't say i'm a shopaholic, but online shopping totally de-stresses me. it's my go-to chill pill. seriously, though the way some people lose it over my deliveries is kinda weird and funny. like, seriously? i bought it and i paid for it! so, why they're even mad? why the drama? actually, they can complain all they want but it's none of their business anyway – it's irrelevant. if they're that bothered, they should totally get their own stuff instead of creeping on my relaxation techniques.

i'm the kind of person who's like, "i need space when i'm hurting. don't give me advice, just leave me alone." just please.

this year felt completely exposed and violated, like i was undergoing a painful surgery while wide awake. i'm awake this year. i was asleep in 2024.

there's something special about old and classic music that just hits different. happy sunday, fellas!

you know that awful feeling? the one where your heart feels completely crushed, but it's not just emotional? it's like you can feel it in your chest, this heavy, crushing weight. it's seriously hard to breathe, like you're gasping for air. it's your body screaming at you, "hey, girl! wake up! you're hurting!" and it's brutal. it's so intense, right? it's not just your brain; it's your whole body freaking out. it's scary to be so vulnerable, to feel grief so intensely, like it's a physical punch to the gut. but it also means you really cared, you loved hard, and it hurts like crazy when things fall apart. it totally sucks, but honestly, i've realized it's also kind of a good thing, in a twisted way. even though it hurts, it forces you to deal with it, to face the pain head-on, and i know eventually healing will begin, even if the progress is super slow. at least, you're in the process.

you're smart enough to know the difference between resting and rotting. you'll be happier when you choose to spend your time off restoring your energy and preparing for the next busy day instead of oversleeping and mindlessly consuming content.

you have the power to manifest your reality through your words, thoughts, and emotions. we live in this quantum world, the physical reality around you is like a playground where you can create and attract what you desire. if you truly want something, it is within your reach. it's as simple as that.

new levels unlock every time you choose not to engage with what used to be a repeated lesson for you. where cycles end, a new timeline begins.

the things that bring me the most joy are the simplest — the feeling of climbing in to my own bed after a long day. the smell of coffee. a stranger being kinder than i expected. waking up to the sound of rain. the sound of a loved one's laughter. these simple joys are all i need.

hello, as i write now, i realized something again that turning 30 used to feel scary, like a big deadline i wasn't ready for. but now i see it's just a number. age is just a number. “30 is not old”, you have been alive for 3 decades and in 2 of them you could not drink or had any money of your own. also there is literally nothing wrong with being old. i'm excited, not scared. i've realized that getting older is okay. in fact, i can't wait to see what it's like! i want to have grey hair and wrinkles, because it means i've had a life full of experiences. i want to be like a cool witch, wise person, someone who has seen a lot and learned a lot. it's not about getting old and becoming worse, it's about growing and learning. i'm excited to see where life takes me next!

i'm tired of the constant struggle. the endless battle to make things "better" to fit them into my own narrow idea of what's perfect. it's really exhausting. and honestly, it's missing the point. why am i trying to change the world when i can just learn to love it as it is? the messy, chaotic, beautiful, flawed, incredible world. why not? why not celebrate the weirdness, the imperfections, the things that make it unique? why not find joy in the unexpected, the things that challenge my preconceived notions? why not just love it all? because in the end, that's the only way to truly live.

okay! so maybe i'm a little obsessed with this person. i'm totally head over heels, and it's all i can think about. i'm constantly wondering "what if" and "maybe," and my heart is full of hope and excitement. but, you know what? i wouldn't change a thing. this whole "delulu" world i've created in my head, where everything feels amazing and magical is just so exciting! yeah, it might be a little crazy and messy, but it's also thrilling and beautiful. so yeah, maybe i'm insane, lost in a world of my own creation, but i'm not complaining. this is my delulu life, and i wouldn't trade it for anything. it's mine. so yeah, maybe i'm a little crazy, but i'm happy! 🤙

okay, so it hurts when people say no to us. it makes us feel weak. but, i've realized and learned that those times actually make me stronger. every time someone says "no" to me, it means it's a chance to think about what i'm doing and make it better. it's about knowing that i'm good enough even if others don't always see it. it's like a fire inside me that gets stronger every time i face a challenge. so, no matter how many times i get rejected, i know i'm valuable.

life can be tough. sometimes, you have so much to do that it feels impossible. it's okay to take things slow, do less, and make your list smaller. it's okay to just focus on getting through the day and be kind to yourself. being productive doesn't mean doing everything. sometimes, it's about finding the strength to keep going, one small step at a time.

we're often told to control our emotions, to not show too much. but sometimes, feeling strongly is just being honest. it's okay to have big emotions as long as you're not hurting anyone. don't be embarrassed about being passionate or intense. that's what makes us human. so, go ahead and express your feelings. you're not toxic for being real and true to yourself.

i don't like the idea of being labeled as either an extrovert or introvert. sometimes i'm talkative and lively, other times i just want peace and quiet. why should i have to fit into one category? you know, as i know myself, i'm full of different energies - sometimes i'm outgoing, other times i'm more thoughtful. so, yeah! you can't do anything about being me. i'll just be myself without worrying about being put in a box.

sometimes, the little things we enjoy, like a favorite show or hobby, can actually help us feel better. if something harmless makes you happy, go for it. don't worry about what others think. let it be your safe place, where you can relax and feel better. when you focus on these things, you might find the courage to face the world again, feeling a bit stronger and more complete.