Depressed and Alienated

VERY fascinated with the genre of anti-endos that go "all these studies of endogenic systems collect data from self-reported experiences, unlike my source about DID which pulls pure, objective scientific facts out of the ether! any psychology that relies on people talking about their internal experiences is automatically invalid because everyone lies all the time" like. no part of that is correct actually

sick to death of traumatized kid characters who are quiet, intelligent, world-weary old souls. let them be annoying and attention-seeking and weird and creepy.

loud. in the way.

"your younger self would be so proud of you"...uhh no, she would be very disappointed and smack me on the head with her barbie doll.

absolutely heinous to see my parents in myself despite it all. inevitable, but heinous.

they are jealous of my suffering

tagging this as syscourse

growth is understanding how someone who was shitty to you in the past got there and also really internalizing how much you don't want to get to that point. i see the map now, i see the lines they followed. and with understanding, i know what to avoid because that path just leads to people treating others terrible.