I will luve thee

So, it's been a good run. I lasted for over a year, which is more than I can say for a lot of people because I have seen tons of people come and go in the last year.

But my feelings from the other night (which have been stirring for a long while) have not changed at all.

To those of you that know, or will know, you know.

To those of you that don't.... I would say that it's been fun, but, considering I've been stressing and very literally crying about this blog for the past few months, it hasn't really been. Not recently anyway.

So, I'm done.

I do find it extremely upsetting that I have 750 followers and almost no one even attempts to interact with me in any way, shape, or form. And I know that I'm not the only one. I have seen a lot of people go because of this and, frankly, it's fucking bullshit.

We're all here for the same reason, so why do we make people feel like utter shit? Why do we follow people and then sit there and wallow in our "fear" about approaching them, even when they're begging for someone to come RP with them?

Does that make sense to you? Because to me, it makes zero sense.

Anyway, I'm out. I'm tired of feeling like no one gives a fuck that I have this blog. You follow me, but why? So you can ignore me? I just don't get it. 

I post opens, and reblog them, and reblog them, and reblog, reblog and repost. I reblog memes, usually begging for someone to do them. I do this basically all the fucking time that I'm on this blog (and that's most of the day cuz I have no life to speak of). And I reblog memes over and over and over.

And I post more opens and I literally beg for shit all the fucking time.

I know I'm not anyone's only partner but, you know what, sometimes I feel like I only have one partner!

And yet I have 750 followers.

Is it really so terrible of me to upset over the fact that only one or two of that 750 actually interact with me?!

I try! I try really fucking hard to RP with people outside the few that talk to me. I really do! I WANT to RP with other people and non-Lokis like you wouldn't fucking believe. But everyone fucking forgets about me. No answers anything I do.

So don't come to me, when I'm fucking crying and ready to delete and say that I'm not the only person you follow and that you're not on all the time. Just don't fucking insult me.