mc

today it read, create space for something new

please no. i don’t want it to be this way. i don’t want to let go. how can love be so grey. how can i love you so much but know i have to let you go

but i love me too

this isn’t good for me

we are so stagnant

round and round we go

i cry in silence begging you to show me you care

how can someone care so much for me and my daughter but show it so inconsistently

i want so badly to be wrong

i’ve been begging this feeling to go away for a while now

i’ve started sitting back

not reacting

just waiting

hoping you’ll show me i’m wrong

do you not even notice? or do you not want to

or do you not even know me?

it’s always something

time is only surfacing things more

i poured out my feelings to you

you said six words