Tea is a lifesaver

04/22/2020; quarantine challenge week 5: wednesday

what is your favourite song?

ever? it’s gonna be ravel’s la valse. right now, it’s the entirety of lorde’s melodrama and also so many others i can’t choose ahh

worth love.

worth time.

worth effort.

worth energy.

worth fighting for.

100 days of productivity: day 2 and 3!

whoops i forgot to post yesterday because i fell asleep, but yesterday i reviewed some material to prepare for my poster presentation at an upcoming conference in a couple of days, and today i’m working on a neurobiology assignment about viral infection and the brain! ☺️

super nervous and excited for the (virtual) conference - it’ll be my first time attending a scientific conference! 

day 43 of 100 days of productivity

rest day woohoo

did an hour of norwegian

did the next codeacademy lesson

started the next bsl lesson

07.05.2020 // 14:15pm

ive slowly been working back to academic things as professors have finally been assigning (modified) requirements for the fulfillment of the semester. it really isnt easy in this hot weather, during a worldwide pandemic, but that also makes me realize that its necessary to balance self-care and things that really do need to get done. because getting things done is ALSO a form of self-care in the long run. for now, im working on obligations and contracts and studying constitutional law! professors send us recorded lectures and we have to do our own independent study.

in other news, ive been working out regularly (thanks chloe ting and billy blanks) and im in better shape than i have been in a year! i feel really strong and it helps me stay awake in the daytime.

hope everyone is staying healthy and safe.

a burden: there’s a bucket of reasons why you should not feel like one. perhaps you’re overthinking, worried, or feeling down. but don’t ever feel like you’re being such a burden. you are part of the population. you are important. without you, this world would lose the opportunity to be changed in your own simple ways. you are necessary. you are loved and it’s okay to be your own priority.

a disappointment: you’re not! i’m proud of wherever you are right now. im proud of your progress; no matter how enormous or minute it might be. if you failed your test, it’s okay. if you didn’t win the competition, it’s alright. im pretty sure you did your best and it’s that part that will always matter. don’t let other people’s “what a shame” bring you down. YOU. ARE. NOT. A. SHAME. you are blooming in your own simple ways. and I am proud and happy for you. continue growing, aspiring, believing in yourself. i’m proud of you.

a weirdo: most definitely never a weirdo! if you like doing things that are quite different, that does not make you a weirdo. that makes you special and even more precious. it was such a perfect combination of atoms and dna that led to a beautiful creature that is you and oh dear god, you’re amazing. your way of thinking is creative and the way you do things is totally out of this world. you are beyond the things earthly. you are meant for greater things. and you are most definitely not a weirdo.

ugly: whoever said you were, should most definitely need to get their eyes checked. when was the last time they went to the eye doctor anyway? if there’s anything that i’d like to be, it is to be as beautiful and as bright as you, a total human version of sunshine. your eyes light up like a ray of sunlight, your lips are perfectly carved like cherries, and your noise is huge or small and it’s cute. most definitely cute like a button. and the world should be in awe every time you wake up.

not good enough: you are good enough. you should feel good enough. if somebody’s making you feel like you’re not, then that only means he does not deserve you, the brightest star light in the universe. you deserve to feel loved. your strength and your smiles make this world a better place. you are good enough: always have been, forever will be.

alone: i’m here for you, your dogs are there for you. your cats are waiting for you. your pets will always be at your back, giving sweet and soft head bumps to make you feel loved. your music playlist is there for you to blast when you’re feeling a tinsy bit down. you are never ever alone. we’re constantly caring, loving, and waiting for you. please stop frowning and crying, you are loved.

stupid: you are, as a matter of fact, really really intelligent and even smart! perhaps you’re having difficulty in understanding your math or chemistry lessons, but that’s part of the process! at least you’re learning. i’m pretty sure some people will not be able to understand it just like you. but that doesn’t equal to being stupid. you’re just learning. continue to crave for knowledge and continue to make your curiosity work. you are not stupid.