TYLER . ⚠︎

Nobody talks about how painful it is to not be straight.

I wish I was normal.

I want to be vulnerable so badly. It’s just terrifying. I hate being perceived as weak. I can’t ever ask for help or reassurance or company or anything.

I think, maybe, getting into a relationship will distract me from missing him.

This is torturous. All of this is fucking torture. I don’t want to keep waiting, and waiting, and waiting. All I do is wait. And it’s never going to happen.

Six years, I waited, and I got nothing.

I’m definitely front stuck. Shit.

I need my own blog.

I can’t even look for the shit I want for my moodboards on pinterest because it shows up on your followers feeds 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

It’s not Heaven til I’m with you.

I want to go complain to a counsellor, but how would I explain that I’m crying because of my “boyfriend” who’s been dead for 23 years?

It’s just that nobody is noticing this time around. It’s my fault we’re like this.