moon ghost

(T_T) *depressed*

All I want to do is write this scene where one character treats another character gently and the other one is just totally undone by it in a “this gentleness upsets me far more than all the traumatizing things that have happened to me in this entire story because the suffering was pretty much expected whereas this is just…outside of my comfort zone” and somehow this is difficult. 

YO can I get this but also with a side of “character being gentled starts to break down finally beginning to process how fucked up their past treatment actually was because holy shit they’re so close to tears over someone being so NICE to them, AND being reluctant to go into it with the character being gentle bc they’re afraid they’ll sound pathetic”?

The gentle character is terrified that they are doing something terribly wrong because the hair-stroking or hugging or whatever seems to be making the other character SO uncomfortable, but when they apologize and stop, the other character actually grabs their hand to keep them from going away.

And is not sure if they want it to continue or not because the kindness is making them break down and they’re not sure they’re ready to be so vulnerable (read: did not plan to ever be vulnerable again, like EVER) and so they’re acting really weird and maybe moody but also needy. But also trying NOT to look needy.

They are convinced to the bottom of their soul that this neediness will drive the other character away and must be hidden at all costs, but also it would be so nice and also totally impossible but it would be really nice if it was possible for the other character to see that neediness and… not be revolted by it?