Her head shook, vision turning blurry at his denial. “There’s no such thing as a little drink for you Harry…” She wanted to believe otherwise but the past had proven her wrong time and time again. She and Peter were all Harry had to keep him on the wagon, to keep him moving forward and not throwing his life away. It was a heavy responsivity but MJ wouldn’t trade it for the world, she loved Harry far too much. Then he was whispering, begging, pleading, becoming a bigger mess then he had been mere moments ago. Her eyes were glassy seeing his disarray, his panic and fear. She never wanted to cause it, and even knowing logically she was doing the right thing didn’t stop her heart from breaking at the sight of it. Of him. He was crying, shaking, and MJ so desperately wanted to wipe it all away. She wanted to party with him, have fun, like in the old days before his father and Gwen died. Before they were suddenly grown ups and there was no going back to how it used to be. A sob of pure relief left her lips at Harry’s agreement to leave the club. Thank God. “I’m gonna call a car to get us, okay?” She reached forward, wiping a tear from Harry’s cheek and wishing she had the power to make them all disperse. “We’ll go to my place, get you cleaned up, and we’ll figure it out from there.” She promised, taking hold of his hand tightly within her own. “It’s gonna be okay Harry, I promise.”
Harry didn’t like her words; they reflected Peters more often than not; he could handle drinking once in a while when it came down to it. He was grown and could do what he wanted after all he lived most of his life that way given the fact his own father didn’t give a shit about him. This was the part of drinking and drugs he hated, the part when you came down and everything hit you all at once. When MJ mention Peter he felt like a wave hit him over and over again as his memories came flashing through his brain making him want to stop everything. He wanted to escape, he’d tried to end it all once only Peter and MJ hadn’t let him, he could still remember hearing Peter's word, the sweet boy torn between intense rage and fear of losing another person he’d come to care for. “Okay okay…Don’t tell peter, please…It was a mistake please” He continued to beg he’d let them both down so much he couldn’t bear to see that face ever again, the questions that would follow this he knew would be hard to tell but he’d do anything so long as MJ kept this between them. He clung to her for a moment, the tears still falling as all he could do was nod his head at her words, unable to form anything. “It's never okay, I’ll never be okay….” was all he whispered, holding on to her hand to let her lead him out of there.