Caress Me Down

I used to spend my time being angry at you for the stupidest things I didn't want to let go of the fear and anger I was holding onto I didn't want to get over my past just yet I held onto the little things to mask my true feelings and hid in the deepest corners of who I am to the point where it was no longer me I was drowned by the sadness that swept me away immediately when I realized that your love for me has faded I never meant to hold you back I never wanted what we had to be looked at negatively I never wanted this at all I'm sorry I didn't show you that I wanted you when you needed me to I was obsessed with doing the right thing I didn't see that I was doing the right thing for the wrong people So I retrace our every step with an unsure pen Trying to figure out what my head thinks But my head just ain't what it used to be Dear no matter how we part, I hold you sweetly in my head And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead