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Characters - Reader, Dean, Sam, Eric, Emma

Pairings - Dean x Reader

Warnings - Fluff, Angst (i’m sorry), Cursing

A/N - So i realized that the last time i posted for this series was in july 2017 and I thought to myself… “well fuck my life…” I am so sorry to the few of you that actually read my story even though it is terrible and I suck at writing and keeping up with my blog. But trust me don’t even get me started on what has been going on in my life right now, long story short: things have been really complicated right now by I have managed to find some time to woman up and finish this fucking story because I am very excited for Part Twenty. For now I hope many like this next part of my series, so close to the end and i promise i won’t wait a whole fucking year to write this lmao, so sorry again lol.

“Hey (Y/N)! It’s Jesse, I was just calling to see how you were doing?” he said.

“How did you get this number?” you snapped.

“Well I am actually in Kansas visiting some friends and one of the store clerks said they knew you, so I asked for your number and called to see what you were up to.” he said curiously.

“Why are really calling me Jesse?” you said getting annoyed. You and Jesse had been dating for 5 years before you disappeared to live with the Winchesters. After your friends were killed and you didn't really have your parents anymore either so Jesse was the only person you had left in your life, but since he cheated on you that same day, you went out to drinks with your friends, because there was no one left. That day your friends were murdered by vamps and your 5 year-long boyfriend cheated on you. Some day huh?

“Please (y/n), I made a mistake, I need you and I still love you, you just walked out on me-” he said.

“-Because you cheated on me! Of course I walked out on you, what did think I was gonna do? Stay there and watch while you fucked another woman in our room?!” you cut him off.

“Who is that?” asked Sammy quietly, you were unaware that Sam was still there with you in the library while you were on the phone. You looked at him and gave him an apologetic look and walked into another room to talk Jesse without waking the kids with your shouting.

“Please (y/n), I need to see you again just please agree to meet me so we can talk, so I can apologize to you in person and you can at least give me some type of explanation why you disappeared.” he pleaded.

You sighed, “Fine, we can meet for coffee tomorrow at 8 o’clock. On 2nd and main st.”

“Ok I will meet you tomorrow, goodbye (Y/n), it's good to hear from you again.” said Jesse. He hung up the phone and you sighed wondering how you were going to tell Dean and how he was going to take the news. You walked out into the hallway and into your’s and Dean’s room. Dean was laying on the bed with his eyes closed and headphones on listening to music.

“Hey baby, BABE!?” you smacked Dean’s leg to get his attention. He shot up startled.

“What, what I’m awake!” he shouted.

“Shhh! You’ll wake the kids.” you said.

“What’s wrong babe?” he asked.

“Jesse called.” you said. His jaw clenched at the mention of his name, he looked at you and he immediately got mad, ever since you told him that story about Jesse he automatically didn’t like him. ‘Well who would…’ He was about to say something before you said, “And before you say something and get mad I want to tell you why he called me. He said he wanted meet up with me and apologized for what he did to me and I think I owe him an explanation as to why I disappeared that day.”

“Why would even think about talking to that dick, no way in hell you are going to see that douchebag tomorrow. And I would be shouting if it wasn’t for our kids sleeping in the next room. You don’t owe him shit after what he did to you. So what if he wants to talk to you it’s been 5 years (Y/n), why does he care to reach out now, if it’s been this long he obviously doesn’t care about you anymore.” he said furiously.

“He said that he still loves me.” you said. Dean looked at you long and hard, his eyes slowly dropped down to his feet.

“Do you still love him?” He said quietly, you couldn’t help but tear up when you saw the tears build up in your husband’s eyes as he looked at you.

You kneeled down to look him in the eye and said, “Dean don’t be stupid, of course I don’t love him anymore, I love you now and always will, we are married for Chuck’s sake, we have two kids together, Sammy, Cas, and the rest of our family, why would I ever leave that? Why would I want to leave that? Why would I ever leave such an amazing man that I have ever met in my life and has given me everything I ever wanted in life.” you sighed. You lifted his chin so you could look in his eyes and leaned in to kiss him softly.

“Just promise me you won’t go see him tomorrow.” he looked at you pleadingly.

“I promise.” you sighed as you ran your hands through his hair.

Dean fell asleep with you in his arms but you couldn't bring yourself to close your eyes without wondering what would happen the next morning. You tossed and turned all night in bed, you looked at the clock and saw that it was already 7 in the morning and you were planning to meet Jesse at 8. You got out of bed, took a shower and got ready to go out. You left a note on the bed for Dean saying “I woke up early to make a supply run for breakfast I'll be back before you wake up. Love, your y/n.”

You grabbed the keys to your motorcycle in the bunker. You remembered how you Dean taught you to ride, you don't even know Dean had ever been on a motorcycle before, but he gave your bike for your birthday a couple years ago. ‘God I love that man.’ You started the engine and made you way to the coffee shop.

You arrived 8:00 sharp to see Jesse already sipping on a cup of coffee waiting for you. He looked up and saw you walking towards him and he smiled.

“Hey y/n, God I missed you so much.” he made his way to hug you, but you immediately backed up and say down before you could make any physical contact with the dick.

“Listen Jesse, I'm here because you wanted to talk and I wanted to tell you why I left. So I will start, not only did I leave because I didn't want to see the fuck-fest that was going on in our bedroom at the time, but after that happened I felt I had no one left, and obviously you heard about Jadyn and Tom’s deaths. So I left and found a new home, I made myself a family that I love and adore, I'm married, I have two kids and that's all I need and all you need to know.” You didn't go any further and you were not planning on telling what your current “job" was, it's not like you were going to say, ‘Sorry I disappeared on you but it's ok cuz I hunt monsters now k bye!’,you thought.

“Y/n that doesn’t change the way I feel about you I still love you, and I think we belong together, please give me another chance. It may seem crazy and hectic, but you can’t just walk away knowing that there has to be some feeling still between us.” he sighed.

“You know, I really thought that you changed and actually got a life, you pathetic loser. You must be too stupid to get this through you thick head, I don’t want you back, I want my husband. I want my kids and I love the life I have, and it would be so much better if you kept your business out of it, so go and live your life and fuck all the women you want, but don’t you ever come back to Kansas and confess your undying love for me. I don’t give a fuck what you feel, so do us both a favor and go fuck yourself. I am so done with your bullshit! SO GOODBYE FOREVER!” You scoffed while also flipping him off, you shot straight up and got on your bike to go home without even looking back.

You arrived home and saw Dean standing in front of the bunker door. ‘Crap’ you thought.

He was leaning against the doorway and crossed his arms. You knew that look on his face, you were definitely in trouble.

“I don’t see any grocery bags in your hands.” he said while continually staring you down.

“Dean-” you were going to explain until he cut you off.

“You know what y/n, just stop, we both know where you went. I told I didn’t want you to go see him but you don’t listen to me. You never listen to me! After so many years of marriage you go and do this to me, I knew it, I knew you were cheating on me. I was never good for, how could I be, I’m a fuck up and I don’t deserve you, I never did.” he finally finished and had tears streaming down his face.

“You never even gave me a chance to explain myself you asshole! But instead I come home to you screaming in my face! If you don’t trust me then why am I even still with you after all these years. Jesus Dean! When are you going to realize that I will always love you, I mean, I married you for a reason, I chose you! I can’t do this right now!” you raised your hands in defeat. “I need to not be here right now, let me know when you have calmed down and are ready to fix our marriage.” you rushed in inside with tears in your eyes and packed a overnight bag.

“Hey y/n! Are you okay?” asked Sam on your way out.

“I’m gonna stay at a motel tonight I can’t be here right now. Just help Dean look after the kids for me while I’m gone.” you said and walked out to your bike and drove to the next town over and stayed at the nearest motel.

“Dude what’s wrong with y/n? Why was she crying when I saw her?” said Sam.

“I- I don’t even know what happened because I didn’t even let her explain, but she went to go see Jesse and I yelled at her and she left. I don’t- I fucked up Sammy… I got to get her back. I have to find her.” Dean grabbed the keys to Baby and wouldn’t stop driving till he found you.

Taglist: @imaginingadifferentlife @ghost-in-love @tricksterdean

Hey guys! Even though there are only a few of you that follow me, even getting like 10 notes is like mind blowing to me but I'm getting off topic lol. Just wanted to let you guys know that I have Part 19 of "It's a Hard Life to Live" series and if you guys need to catch up then just click on my masterlist.

I ALSO have my very first Loki fic💚 coming up soon and it will be very fluffy and I'm gonna throw some angst in there too, becuz who doesn't love angst...