I’m Fine

110 days

Hide under the vale of mystery

Tori was sort of always the same. But Frances changed at home Frances was cool and quirky while at school she was plain and quiet. Tori was always a wildly tortured soul somewhat unaware of it herself yet somehow always apathetic. She felt minimally and suffered silently. She was and is a strong individual.

That’s when I remember that I’m not good enough. I never was. I never will be.

“You hate yourself, I hate myself. Common interests. We should get together.”

sometimes love stories are'nt happily ever after and for people like me they don't exist. for people like me there is no such think as love. No butterflies, no first date's, no i love you's and no romance. there is no such thing as soumate's. books ae never real. in books teenagers go to parties every frdiday night and have sex in the back of a car. In moovies and books teenagers are always busy they are always out. in real life they wake up late and watch tv util dark they eat ocasionally and then watch things again until late. in the early morning they wrestle with the stress of life until they fall asleep only to wake up a few hours later to go to school. Stories like these tell young girls that love romance and sex come to everyone. All girls are equal and every girl is lovable. Stories change, people change but in those stories they are sad but have friends or at loveless but have siblings.

I’m not some wildly tortured soul im just a girl. A girl who survives one minute at a time living only though books and movies. Living through the fictional character. Some who I relate to others who I don’t but no character has ever realated to my life perfectly no character has ever understood who I am or what I’ve experienced. I think that no character has ever hated themselves in just the sma way I do or that no character has ever been where I am.

Oh gosh I put so much pressure on you I should not exaggerate if that even is what I’m doing.

Ok help me here what movies are described in solitaire ?

Update I got two books and ordered two. One the quote and the loud. Two if you’ll have me and I ordered others