We Are Young

I didn’t want to talk about Chester Bennington. I thought if I could just ignore it, close the tab and lie on my bed all day, the news won’t be real. But I kept reading the news everywhere, people kept asking me about it, knowing that I’m a big fan of Linkin Park in my adolescent days. I ignored them too. I didn’t want to get too triggered, but I know if I don’t talk about this, I’ll let the voice in my head narrating it to me again and gain, purposely trying to hurt me. Chester helped me in battling ‘her’. His songs helped me to get through the hardest moments of my high school life. I have depression, I had experience in being mentally and sexually abused. I relate so much to him that he became the person that kept me going, the evidence of a survivor. So when I heard the news, it hits me so hard. I’m having breakdowns again after a long time, even my parents are asking about it. I’m usually good at hiding it from people...but Chester, Linkin Park, their songs mean so much to me. I survived because of them.