deeper than bones

I found inspiration today from someone I was least expecting to relate to. What they were saying hit home on some really stressful and trying things that have come up in the last couple months. Not only with my personal relationships but within myself. Many of us tell ourselves we’ll be patient. We’ll be better. We’ll have everything figured out someday. We’ll start on that day or this, today, tomorrow, next week. Of course a lot of the time we find ourselves in a state of disappointment. She brought up those feelings of, “why can’t I have that dream job I’ve been working hard for yet?” “Why can’t I have the endless amount of funds to buy what my heart desires?” All of these questions come up and I realized we’re all dealing with these emotions. We’re all trying to better ourselves - and that in itself is an accomplishment we have to acknowledge. You want to go back to school, have the kind of money to travel or move away from things that are holding you back? Instead of spending that little amount of $ on drinks and short term gratification this weekend, make the effort to put that away somewhere safe to better your future. If you want something you have to go out and do it. One of my best friends has showed me that in the last year and I didn’t quite understand what it takes until I had shit hit the fan. I realized I could easily get up and go. I could start over any part of my life I choose to. I can do anything I set my mind to. It may sound selfish if you feel like you’re leaving someone behind, but you’re not. You’re only inspiring them to better themselves as well. There is a quote that has resonated with me and become a deep part of my beliefs. It’s said by, Marianne Williamson, one of my favorite speakers and authors. The whole speech is something I feel everyone should listen to at least once in their life, but these parts specifically are things I tell myself on days when I feel lazy, frumpy, and like I’m not good enough…. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure…As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”