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I've been sort of dilly dallying and tom foolerying around on this blog. I've went through some hard ass psychological stuff also trying to figure out what to do with life. I'm guessing this blog is going to be it. I spend a lot of time reading news outlets and seeing things going on in the world. Yesterday, I came upon a journalism outlet called The Nerve

Here's the website. thenerve.news. I haven't read anything yet, but it looks promising to do journalism on tech and other things. I was thinking of writing more in this blog about just what I think about all that's going on in the world especially, tech. My own shitty unprofessional journalism. I don't really have much going for me in my life anyways. The current situation of things in the world keeps me up at night. Actually, it doesn't but it's just a saying about what you think about a lot.

I guess this blog is just going to be it. I saw a homeless lady at Panda Express yesterday and it bothered me. I went home and went on my phone and saw people posting how luxurious their life was and that bothered me too. It didn't really bother me but that's not the person I want to be. Hey, if that's their steez, not my business to criticize. I just find spending my time making the world better somehow a better choice.

Was thinking of changing this blogs name to Tony's shit talking blog since all I do is shit talk. Lol... I'm drinking some beer right now. Haven't had a drink for a long time. It feels so good. I know tomorrow is going to be a shit storm though. I miss these days. Been trying hard to be a good boy.

I wonder if anyone is reading this blog. I posted it on my Instagram but I doubt anyone checks my profile. I follow these girls on Instagram but they ain't giving me no play. Sucks, yo!! Relationships and love sucks. Either you love them or they love you. It's never mutual. Someone always has to compromise. FUCK that!!! I'd rather be alone. Plus, relationships suck in general. Real life always kicks in and you have to think about money and all that bullshit!!

I figure that everything in life nowadays is well thought out, planned, and organized. This blog isn't. I'm the type of person who relies a lot on his intuitions. I go on a whim on things and am very spontaneous. It's always worked for me, at least with the girls. Lol. "New age" girls don't want that anymore. They've learned their lessons from past mistakes and guys like me are the chumps now. We used to rule the dating scene. The bad boys, you might say. But years of experience tells women those aren't the guys to marry. We become drunk, abusive, dead beats. Lol.

Yep, I'm a dying breed. We are being overrun by responsible lame yuppies. Yep!! That's what's appealing now. You got money. You got a career. You got an educational background. You come from a good family. That's what women look for these days (besides other things).

Yep, no room for guys like me anymore. We're a dying breed. AND rightly so. I need to evolve and get with the program. Women aren't putting up with my shit anymore. HEAL or die trying. That's the motto.

I'm the type of person you'll hear who talks about feelings. BUT it's different from emotions. YES, emotions and feelings are close cousins but it really isn't the same. It's like feeling things out. You're in a dark alley and something doesn't feel right. You don't become a little bitch and start crying. You grab your shit and try to gtfo that situation. People say I'm sensitive or emo and I get offended. BUT of course I don't say anything because there's nothing wrong with being emo or sensitive.

Nothing going on today. I'm not sure why I write in this blog. I don't think anyone reads it. So much going on in the world. I feel like most of it is just a bunch of bullshit. People just doing stupid shit and saying dumb shit. Same bullshit being perpetuated. Same fucking story. Nothing changes, really.

My biggest concern for myself is finding a person to share my life with. I don't really give a shit about anything else. It's pretty tough when you're a 44 yo and the world has seemed to pass you by. I have to say I'm doing better mentally but my sleep is still pretty bad.