emerald eyes

i think about you two often, and it still hurts a lot, not having closure and not knowing where we stand. i still look at old rp things, and photos of us, and wish i could’ve changed how i had done EVERYTHING. i did a lot of stupid shit and i understand if it’s hard to forgive me, but i want to apologize and i hope that you’ll give me a chance, because you guys deserve better than what i did. maybe im making a mountain out of a molehill but idc anymore. i hope the both of you are all right. i doubt you’ll ever see this, but i want to do everything i can in at least finding closure for the both of us, if that’s all right. i would keep trying to find ways to fix things, or talk to you, if i knew how to and had the stamina, but it’s been a long time and i think this might be the last time i try. i’m still bad with people, and I have anxiety, not to mention that i don’t know if you’ll ever talk to me again even if i try, which is justified but i hope i can change your mind and that want to try again. i’m gonna try following you guys, just so i can hope that you’ll see this, i promise im not trying to make some grand gesture i just don’t know how to go about it. if you ever see this, in a couple of minutes or days or months or years, i am always willing to talk and figure things out. ALWAYS. please, if you ever see this, talk to me. i really want to make things right, and at least try and see if we can be good friends again. i would be honored if you gave me one more chance. you know my facebook