words from my dope fudanshi soul

she lets me let her hit me cause im diseased

thinking of interesting fictional scenarios in my head but also being bothered by the very real fact that im only doing this because if i had to experience one drop of my emotional reality im going through something would go baaaadly for me

i wish the gender clinic was just fucking normal to me when i was clearly experiencing psychosis from dysphoria and couldn’t fucking handle it. literally helped nobody. they deserve none of my sympathies

a thought that has dominated my entire sexual development is just “i wanna be penetrated but i don’t like vaginal penetration am i a bad person”

you can only say you’re a golden retriever boyfriend if you’re actually willing to get the ears and collar out and go on all fours. don’t be a poser <3

stayed up an extra hour jerking off. it is now 4.30. scary

now that i’ve got the ears i gotta get a tail and collar situation going. everyone will love the dog i will become ^_^