What is this 'Emotional Availability?' Is it some sort of weapon?
Like, I can make my emotions fucking available to you. Is that what you want? Are you trying to hold all this anger and frustration and downright lust for violence and not look at me funny?
I have so much bitterness and resentment and callousness that is so fucking ugly and I know no one wants to fucking see. Meaning I can't just be emotionally available and expect people not to be repulsed. But to find that I've been hurting people anyway in an attempt to hold back all of that genuinely makes me fucking laugh












