jey

i have a best friend who i know through media and all that stuff (basically an online friend). i’ve known her for about a year now and i absolutely love her sm. -ps not romantically. lately i’ve been in such a rough spot and for a while now i haven’t had the energy to text with enthusiasm like i used to before. i feel like we’ve been distance lately and it makes me so sad. i’m starting to think that she’s getting bored of me. i mean like, looking back on our texts from months ago, there was more of a sense of happiness and connection there. now it doesn’t feel like that anymore. i’ve been so depressed lately and noticing our friendship now is the most saddest thing to witness. i’ve been trying to text her frequently, inviting her to call and in general trying my best to give off the same energy i used to but she isn’t giving the same energy back and is really distant. i feel like i’m possibly a bother to her. i wish this didn’t need to be happening now, i never would’ve wanted this to ever happen. i’m just really hoping our friendship won’t become ruins and that this is instead just a small moment of distantness that will end soon. i love her a lot and it really pains me to witness our friendship possibly dying.