I feel so bad about this but part of me is not really looking forward to going back to school and having two classes with my one friend.
From the beginning, socializing with her has been particularly draining even though she’s nice and I like her. She was pretty much my only friend and the only social contact I had in a long time so I easily made it work.
But after participating in this summer program and making a friend who I just clicked with, I don’t know if I’ll have the patience anymore to hang out with my friend at school. She’s done nothing wrong, it’s not her fault, but she is socially exhausting for me. And I’d forgotten what it was like to have someone where we were already thinking the same thing before either of us had said it out loud.
I don’t think I’ll have the same patience to explain everything to her now that I know the feeling of just being understood without having to say much at all. And I feel so guilty because with my friend at school, I know I’m probably her only friend. So I don’t want to pull away and end up hurting her. But at the same time, I’ve realized how difficult it is to have to constantly explain myself to someone.














