행복했던 날들이었다

I hate that my exceptionally good spacial awareness does not translate to where my own physical body is in space. It’s why I’m scared of driving. If I’m outside of a car, I can tell exactly whether it would fit in a parking space or not but once I’m inside it and its movement becomes an extension of my own, I have no idea how close anything is to anything else.

Damn what’s that one sci-fi kinetic novel that I played over a decade ago called? It’s basically about a scientist dude waking up with amnesia to a disturbingly dystopian world, and through exploration he gradually discovers that the horrifying situation he has found himself in is the result of his own doing. And the reason everything was crazy was his plan to preserve his wife and daughter’s consciousness in a computer that went terribly awry but that he refused to give up on due to his own stubborn selfishness having made him apathetic to the suffering his creation caused?

What would be an impressive kpop song to sing for an audition? Because while Golden is difficult from a technique standpoint (but not too hard to achieve for me), it is the most basic song ever. Not unique. At all. I’m trying to find something that can for most of the song fit a range anywhere from Alto 2 to Soprano 1 (but ideally on the higher side because people find that more interesting). Also a song without too much adlibbing that affects the integrity of the song if only one person is singing.

I’m probably gonna apply for girls planet 2027 for shits and giggles since usually this stuff happens during the summer and I’m gonna probably have graduated by then anyway and that’s assuming I get in and sign the contract which is def not happening anyway.

Going home tomorrow which is disappointing but also a relief. I have had only a couple full days of rest during this whole month and a half period so at this point I am fueled purely by vibes and constant stimulation. I feel great, actually, but I’m gonna crash so hard when I get home on top of the jet lag I’ll already have. Luckily I have two weeks before going back to school.

Uhhhhhh… old lady on the subway touched my leg as she exited and at first I thought she was telling me to move it because my foot was maybe sticking out and getting in the way since I’m a chronic leg crosser but then I see that the woman next to me is doing the exact same thing and still has her legs crossed (and thus was probably not told by the old woman to move) and now I’m wondering if it’s because my hairy knees are visible???? (Oh, the horrors!!!!)

I’ve been talking to this one girl in my class in the program and she’s from the UK and she’s very nice and also neurodivergent like me but also a bit immature so I struggle relating to her as much as she seems to feel like she relates to me. Yes, she’s nice, but constantly hearing about her excessive and poor financial decisions regarding collecting skz merchandise as if it’s this cute funny thing is getting a little annoying. Girl, you need help. Buying every single little alternate version of your bias’s character is just irresponsible when you already clearly have so many of them. And then on top of that having to constantly announce it to everyone.