pleasedaddy

My life as a Hotwife has been crushing, exciting, liberating, draining, and full-on fucking crazy. I started out just less than a year ago and I've made so many mistakes. My husband and I have the arrangement that I fuck whoever I want..he gets pictures or videos. Sounds fair and easy. I still fail at it. It's hard in the moment when you have a stranger's cock in your mouth to say, "Hold up! Take a shot".  It's on every level weird to me BUT I'm trying so I'm giving myself some credit. Meeting people when Craigslist was working for me and made my life so much easier. For some reason there was an understanding between discreet people just wanting to fuck. Most of the weirdo expressed that weirdness in the reply email. So you naturally would avoid them. I never had any uncomfortable fuck situations. Now that that's gone Tinder has been a nightmare. Yesterday I was asked right off the bat if I was into Greek Sex. What!?!?! Was my response. He told me to Google it...rude! Just fucking tell me. I just asked Jas who informed me maybe he meant Odeipus. Again WHAT!? Apparently it means mother/son play. Nope. Won't do it. I asked him if that's what it meant. He replied with no but if I wanted to be his "Step-Mommy that would be hot". 😶 Lord Baby Jesus..maybe I'm too naive to think just wanting to hook up will be easy. So I'm back to ground zero. I started talking to someone last night. He seems cool and is totally my type. Grizzly Bear Beast who wants me to call him Daddy. He sent me a stroking video this morning and his voice is so deep I wanted to immediately touch myself. He asked to come over tonight. I'm a parent of two small babies. Whoring ain't easy when you're a single parent. 🙄 On top of my crazy life, Jas fucked a friend of ours last night. I feel obligated to let him play. I literally have become a whore over the past year. It's still weird to me to think of him having a cock in his mouth. So many feelings there....😑. I recently fucked a friend. He use to be somewhat my daddy. Things changed. Mostly probably my fault. 🤷 I was nervous. It was the first time I had played with him in awhile. I got fucked up in hopes to deal with my shyness. No amount of beer makes me feel calm around him.  Maybe it not knowing what will happen during sex or not knowing how much pain I will feel. We have hooked up enough that I shouldn't feel this way but I still find myself on edge with excitement every time. He normally tells me to put my plug in but didn't this time. It's been my favorite part of sex these days. There was no chill time we basically got right to it. After being hit with the crop for what I assume was 20 times, a teardrop fell from my face. In that very moment I realized I wasn't into cropping. I think I'm just into the way he makes me feel the rest of the time. Calling me little or choking me as soon as he walks into the door for disobeying his demands. His Alpha presence is intoxicating. I crave it. You see it on his face. He just looks like someone willing to abuse you in all the right ways.