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There is a boy and you don’t want to kiss him.  There is a girl and you want to hold her hand in yours, cradle her head,  pull her between the confines of your rib cage,  have her open her mouth and eat your heart.  There are people who say they are like you  but you cannot relate to them. You say you are like them but they cannot relate to you. Is there really a girl or are you trying to  find safety in the embrace of a lie? Do you think you know who you are any better than they do? You listen to them speak in tongues. All you hear, all you understand, is: a kiss is the first step in devouring someone else. The clack of teeth, bones finding bones.  Hate equals love equals hate, means knowing where they would point the knife and,  possibly, consuming them in spite of it.  Pull her inside you, have her live hidden behind your skin, imprisoned or set free, you can never quite tell.  Would you want to breathe her breath,  think her thoughts,  die her death as well? The boundary of her and you,  them and us,  nothing and everything,  a dead fish’s cloudy gaze.  Be honest, try to see out of your closed lids. Who is holding the knife? Your hand is her hand and her hand is your hand and maybe there is no other hand.  The only one who sees your ribs from inside, grotesque piano bound by flesh in sinew, exclusively yours, is you. GSA

because the books are literally so good wtf??

So if you’re not up for fandom content (or you forgot I even existed, which, fair enough), feel free to unfollow <3

Also I did a very scary phone call today, so I’ll be relaxing for the rest of the day and enjoying the nice weather :)

aber ich muss schauen, ob ich wieder anfange zu posten, ich hätte auf jeden Fall Lust aber seitdem ich umgezogen bin war mein Leben nur eine große Hektik :‘)

Of course korean studies is not your golden ticket to being a millionaire but I think the people who study it don’t want to become one anyway :) just listen to your heart, both when it concerns your studies and your career choices!

So atm I’m planning on being chill about which classes I take and am probably gonna study for 4-5 more semesters instead of 3; afterwards I’ve loosely planned to get my masters bc I don’t want to have to deal with the reality of having to work lmao

Moved again, had finals, now only the term paper is left to be written 🙌🏻 힘들었다 ㅠㅠ