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TW/// mentions of suicidal thoughts, stalking, ableism

Apologies for this behemoth of a post. I felt like this needed to be talked about so I can move on from… whatever this whole thing is. I haven’t spoken to this user in over a year, and they have repeatedly dragged my name in the mud all over something frivolous.

•please note that I will be putting this post in the Sparks tag, as not only were they an active member of this community, but they been attempting to rally fans against me over my personal decisions.

It has come to my attention that recently, a former friend of mine @/lolavspowermanpart2, or leftpales on Instagram, has been making posts accusing me of a slew of things. Things that range from stalking, lying, being an abuser, etc.

These are incredibly serious allegations, and as someone who has been a victim of stalking and abuse from other people, I take these claims very seriously. I will be going through each claim they’ve made and debunking to the best of my ability.

I first met Tessa in 2023, I was 17 going on 18 (I believe), and she was 17. I could be getting the ages wrong as this was a long time ago, but it’s important to note we are close in ages. We were both Sparks fans and we would talk to each other about the band daily. This ranged from memes about the band, discussions about our mutual crushes on the brothers, posting art, etc.

In late November of 2024, I created a server for some of my friends and other art mutuals to hang out in. I’ve never been great with making friends, so I thought a server would give me the opportunity I needed to become close to mutuals that I’ve had for awhile, but never got around to getting to know.

Tessa was one of the many people that asked to join the server, which I added her without hesitation! She was in the server until January of 2025 when she had a falling out with me leading to being blocked.

The reason for this block was because I initially didn’t give Tessa a react on her drawing, something that she took offense to.

(Please note: the react was only added once I apologized profusely and explained myself.)

I tried to explain myself to the best of my abilities, as confrontation isn’t something I’m great with hfksjcjd..

I’ll admit, I was pretty distant for a while, but I explained my reasonings for it. This explanation however, really struck a nerve, as it’s now one of the catalysts for why she hates me.

For context: a few days prior, I was expressing suicidal ideation in the server to my friends, as this was a place I felt safe in. This came after receiving news about Trump’s inauguration, how he was swiftly signing executive orders that endanger people like myself and my friends. Tessa proceeded to cut me off to bring up her own problems, completely unrelated to politics, but rather about a 15 year old in some INXS server she wasn’t even apart of, saying rude and immature things.

She recently made a post trying to twist this situation as me getting angry with her for venting about her status as a child to immigrants, among other things. That is fundamentally false, and comes off as her trying to poison the well and make me sound as bad as possible.

I should note, I have no clue how she managed to get a screencap between me and my friend’s private DMs, if it was sent to her, it certainly wasn’t me :( after this debacle, she blocked me on all platforms. Which she has every right to! Even if I personally don’t think I did anything wrong to warrant this, it’s her boundaries.

I would get updates regarding her here and there, mainly from friends who were still talking to her. I never asked for updates or insisted that people go and “stalk” her for my personal gain. Some of these friends would come to me out of confusion as she would be talking about me to them. She claimed I was a hypocrite and was “jealous” of her art because I didn’t like her drawing, and I myself have a history of imposter syndrome that makes me hate my own.

I have gone through many alias changes since then, both out of dissatisfaction with my branding, and struggles with my gender identity. Each time, Tessa has found my new accs and blocked me before I could. I found it odd, and as a result, my friend Leirin messaged Tessa on Tumblr.

Leirin, who might I add, is one of the sweetest people you will ever meet in the Sparks fandom, didn’t understand why she was still angry with me, let alone how she even kept finding accounts of mine. Tessa didn’t respond, instead had a third party respond (which I suppose is fair, as Leirin wasn’t originally involved either.)

These are not from the original messages, but rather a screenshot from when Leirin pasted and forwarded the response to me.

I will say, I find it ironic how Tessa claims she’s not comfortable with engaging with this situation more, yet out of nowhere decided to make a rapid fire of posts when prior to this message from Leirin, I hadn’t talked to her or even talk about her in months. So why did she even bother to dig this up?

In June of this year, I made a post on Tumblr that admittedly, was obnoxious and unnecessary. I announced I was leaving the Sparks fandom and would cease posting photos from my archive to Tumblr and Facebook. My reasoning was for multiple days, I was getting dogpiled and insulted by people in Sparks groups over my frustration with the usage of AI on their live album. As an artist, ai is a very touchy subject with me. I’m prone to get defensive with people, and I should make it VERY CLEAR, that nobody who I publicly replied to here on tumblr were the ones attacking me, I will say though if I was weird and mean in my replies to your posts, I truly apologize and I harbor no bad feelings towards any one <3

Even though I have ceased posting and actively “engaging” with the fandom, I still continue to adore the band and make fanart. Why? Cause I’m allowed to. Plain and simple! You don’t need to be apart of a fandom to make fanart of something. This is something I’ve understood since my DeviantArt days.

Tessa was seemingly angry that a drawing I recently made got over 800 likes and was reposted by the band. She thinks I’m in a never ending cycle of guilt tripping the band for my own satisfaction and that I stalk Ron which is not only just… blatantly untrue, but it’s really fucking ableist in hindsight

She knows that I have BPD, and she knew that Ron is my FP. Those with BPD tend to get extremely attached and emotional towards their favorite person. This is not something I can control at the moment as I’m not financially stable enough for therapy. I have no idea what she is trying to say here, but I did not get angry and say they hated me because “Ron didn’t answer my love letter.” I sent him a letter on Valentine’s Day, not even expecting a response, where I wrote nice things about him, because if you’re in the Sparks fandom, you know Ron is very self conscious about himself 😞

Literally anything I have said about the band or of their lives is stuff that is public knowledge and information that most fans know. Stalking is a very serious thing and it crushes my soul to have such claims thrown at me

I literally wrote everything that occurred that night and why I was initially crying. It wasn’t because I was trying to guilt trip them. Earle Mankey (who God bless him he is the coolest dude ever,) was trying to get me backstage to meet the brothers. I believe security hounded him for it and they eventually were getting on my ass too. I’m not good with men yelling, and having such an insane moment pulled away like that understandably, made me cry.

If Ron and Russell didn’t want to hug me, they would’ve declined. Hell, there was literally staff saying they don’t do hugs right next to them. They did it anyway, why? Because they’re kind, down to earth gentlemen!

All these screenshots from her story come from a friend of me and Leirin, who unknowingly followed Tessa on Instagram not knowing our history. She asked Tessa who the first story (one about me making fanart) were about.

This isn’t even the only things Tessa has posted from my story and uploaded to her account. I don’t know if she has someone screenshotting for her, or she has a sock puppet account…but she has been getting screenshots of my stories since at most 2 weeks ago. Stories about the most inane things from someone trying to slander me in DMs, to fucking BIRDIE drama 💀💀

All of this has occurred since I’ve posted my fanart to Instagram. She claims I’m a stalker and I’m jealous of her art? I’m sorry Tessa, but I’m afraid the call may be coming from inside the house 😕

Final thoughts:

But anyway, thank you for setting the record straight on this whole ordeal. I am always happy to make up with people but instead of Tessa allowing either of us to do that, she takes to trying to slander us (mostly you, but I'm in there a bit) with provably false information in a public setting. She thoroughly mischaracterized you through the lens of, I'm sorry, jealousy. I remember you trying to be a good friend to her for a long time and her being utterly self centered every time. Now instead of trying to hash things out with you and/or I like an adult she is making nonsense up. You getting to meet them and having a hit fan art piece this year seems to have been the cherry on top for her jealousy.

Good Ending where friendship is magic and nobody supposedly died.

Request Sunday:

“L'incantevole Creamy” - Italian Dub Opening for Creamy Mami