It suck’s because I’m missing someone I shouldn’t be missing but they were the only person that made me feel special & it wasn’t wrong for me to be who I am. They absolutely loved me for just me.

I know no one reads these so that is why I like posting my feelings on here… so with that being said - I’m getting so discouraged about modeling & cosplaying . Posting content on IG & TikTok … I have not gotten the same engagement as I did before… i use to get over 100-2,000 likes 30-40 comments every time i post anything . My views were off the roof not like crazy amount of views but the views that were enough to get me almost somewhere . I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know if I should even continue to keep posting my modeling & cosplay content … i just feel so sad . I wish i never moved & went on hiatus due to my accident & other depressing shit. I could’ve gotten the same engagement & gotten somewhere if i haven’t .. now i feel like I’m just ugly or something…