(previously: haelblazer)

Genuinely, where the fuck did I leave off reading comics

I'm so mad at myself for looking at that and basically seeing alternate POV of that damn scene. (Kermit is Louis, Real Frog is Armand.)

What the fuck does the back end of this website look like

Say you'll stay with me blogging until the horse poll closes

having a headache while hydrated is so unfair. you were supposed to protect me.

i wanted so much to enjoy assad's performance and i will maybe revisit the last episode once i can gain some perspective and distance, but the scene where louis is talking about little arun just doesn't hit me with feelings for armand. the context is just crazy. his ex, the man he's lived with 77 years, is reduced to a decapitated head on the table, barely coherent, louis' daughter stand-in is also being tortured, and we're supposed to feel for little arun? how am i supposed to take it seriously or feel any sort of empathy for armand in that context. assad's acting could not save it because the feelings he was supposed to convey were corrupted by the circumstances of that scene. if the writers don't understand this then we've really lost the plot on everything that makes good storytelling.

that finale was shit. this show is ran by white supremacists. armand brands louis like he’s a fucking slave and carves an A(HIS INITIAL)in his chest. armand tortures louis’ dying body while lestat’s body is left alone. louis gets a painful victim-blaming apology forced outta him through torture and lestat gets a hallucination dinner. regina was used as a pawn by armand to torture louis with claudia’s face and lead him to breaking down. regina is forced to slit her wrists and watch a man slit his throat while shes tied to a chair across louis’ decapitated head. but armand is given a heartfelt apology from the black person he’s actively torturing and killing. oh and also lou’s torture is broadcasted and livedtreamed in a dark web snuffporn chatroom for random people to watch. how is this not the trial all over again??? armand’s “i took aesthetic pleasure in making your death visually exhilarating.” (an actual line from the show referencing why armand lynched louclaudia) all over again. this season and episode is horrifically racist. idk how i ever thought this show cared about black people.

some days are really hard and it can be difficult to understand why. but usually its probably because my blood is haunted

people who don't wear glasses don't get the added benefit of taking off your HD eyesight for a while. just. fuck it! i'm done. 240p vision time

I've seen enough.