I have slingshotted myself from living Destitute and Hungry to living Deliciously and in Luxury at Mach 5 and I need to turn right back around this instant!! I tried to fill the void in my heart with discount valentine's day treats and juicy couture bedroom accents and oh my god it didnt work??? The void is sTiLl tHeRe??? Am I 2??? Get it together!!!

I have only lost 6 pounds this month 🙃

I really was so sure I'd be happy with my weight once I was at a healthy bmi. Then I told myself and everyone around me I'd stop when I was firmly in the middle of the healthy range. Then I changed it to slightly below center, just in case I gain back more than I expect when I stop. Now I kind of want to see how far I can take it. I like seeing the numbers on the scale go down. I like saving so much money on food. I like how clean my retainers stay when I dont eat. I want to find out what else there is to like.

I saw some dude physician say "that's not factual, that's just a Tumblr theory" in response to someone saying women store more lower belly fat than men in order to protect their reproductive organs and serve as an energy reserve during pregnancy... like I'm sorry Mister Doctor Sir, I was under the impression that thats just a simple fact with the vast majority of mammals?? Why are human women exempt from that?? I hate the way men's desire to perceive women's "imperfections" as laziness invades every aspect of our lives. I have a bit of a fupa bc i need to protect a hypothetical fetus. It will take more time and effort to slim it down than other parts of me bc my body prioritizes that fat over all other fat. That's it. It's that simple. Medical misogyny pisses me off so much.