The mind is forever

A young dark haired male, who had recently moved into the small town, approached the girl, raising an eyebrow at her greeting, but only chuckled afterwards. "Hello to you too, miss." He said with a smile.

I know, I didn't mean to say it like that. I've just have had so many therapists tell me how wrong I've done everything.

And I don't want to make people happy, I just want to give them the push to keep being happy. I hate seeing others negative because people have so much potential and reasons to live.

Me though, I was stuck in a behavioral school for trying to stick up for myself in middle school, where the school counselor would get angry at me for crying. Not only that, I've been the child that is ignored while my sister got to be active and popular in school. I was not, I was shamed and told the way I acted was socially unacceptable. So I decided to shut myself down and close out everything around me. I have almost no friends from back then and when I got to my real school in my senior year, everything was too late for me.

Now I sit home alone in my room, locking my door while my parents are enjoying the tv and my sister is out in the world having freedom and finding love.

I'm tired of being told what I need, because I experienced a school that was only focused on therapy for my whole childhood. No one else has been where I have. You all are lucky to have experienced love, a party, any if that shit. But me, I was shamed and punished for years.