I learned to stop cringing and love the triange

It's not because the love is gone. It's that Ford knows that even a little inch being allowed through the door could have him falling off that wagon.

Allowing himself to feel one shred of affection, of the all consuming devotion that still dwells inside him, would be akin to a recovering alcoholic allowing themselves just one drink. Dangerous, and something that has the potential to undo the entire process of recovery.

Ford doesn't trust himself not to go back to being Bill Cipher's devoted little priest who sold his soul for nothing but his muse's affection, if he lets himself feel anything towards Bill but hate and a desire to stop him. Yes he is stubborn but (at least in his own mind) he has to be. Because even after everything, he still can't help wanting to love and worship Bill Cipher.

I thought this AU was pretty strange, but interesting. I wondered what it would look like

During-betrayal whump with harrowing depictions of realistic abuse ❤️

Post-betrayal whump that's a straight-up psychological horror ❤️

Post-series fluff with personal growth and begrudging rekindling ❤️

Teresa: "Mabel offered to help me out during Bill and Stanford's therapy session...maybe she went too far, but it seems like progress...I'll look into it later."