i'm kind of annoyed at my sister .. we were talking about my illness & it's so obvious she is scared of MY psychosis .. & the last time it happened i really needed her but she had to "protect her peace" lol. every time i think i am over it i am not

Went into the city for the first time in weeks . Shaking before we began to lock up the house. How did i used to live smack bang in the middle of it all. Now it makes me feel scared. Downed a glass of wine for the road. Listened to the opera on the radio in mostly silence. Watched memento with a live symphony soundtrack. I think we were the only ones laughing through the whole thing. Came home to my bedroom roof leaking from all the influx of rain