I'm Losing My Mind But This Time It's Funny

What are you reading rn, why are you reading it, and what format are you reading it in (physical book, ereader, on your phone etc)

bagels for breakfast bagels for lunch toasting them good so they have a nice crunch. bagels in the morning bagel in the afternoon bagel big and round got me howling at the moon

i love when women have a deeper or raspier voice. its very charming

i miss everyone

It’s crazy to me how in so many “analyses” of the freedom in the dark speech that the final line “once someone has illuminated it” is always left out considering how key it is to actually understanding that statement. He’s not saying “dark good, light bad”. He’s saying you can find extraordinary things in the shadows if one can muster the courage to shine a light on them and explore outside the fences. Obviously flint is speaking ideologically here but on a fundamental level he’s speaking of his sexual awakening with Thomas being the one to “illuminate” it, much like how Max did the same for Anne (Max saying “we should bring it into the light” before their first kiss isn’t a coincidence either). Flint doesn’t want himself, or any other unjust outcasts of civilization’s twisted sense of morality, to be chained in the darkness and demonized. That’s kind of what the whole revolution is about. It’s also part of what made news of Thomas’ death so devastating for him and Miranda (“Thomas died in a cold dark place”), and what makes the 4x10 reunion simultaneously cathartic and quietly tragic. Flint finally gets his wish of kissing him in the warmth of broad daylight without a care who sees, but a secluded prison that “doesn’t exist” to the rest of the world is the only place he can do that due to the unshakeable chokehold that colonial oppression and morality had during that time period. Like this doesn’t take much inference to figure out it’s literally stated in words in the dialogue

while i'm thinking about my thoughts and inclinations wrt the finale. the LEAST convincing arguments that i've read on whether flint lives or dies are ones that say that it Isn't In His Character to give up the fight or that it Isn't In His Character to *not* give it up. bc i think the story has been maneuvered very deftly to a point such that neither choice would feel out of character or out of keeping with the themes of the story. i mean we see that when silver asks him directly if he would trade the war for thomas hamilton he says he doesn't know, and i think that we as the audience also do not have the tools to know what he would do when presented with some version of that choice. because his participation in the war wasn't just out of grief, even if silver thinks that--he has ideological convictions, he has more personal resentments about his career ambitions and a sense of wounded pride which could not be redressed no matter who miraculously came back to life. but he also clearly values companionship, comfort, domesticity, not being seen as the bad guy etc etc. these things are at least a little bit mutually exclusive but that's what makes for a good character. he goes back and forth on whether he can reconcile with england depending on the circumstances and his emotional state. such that saying that he ever reaches a point where it is impossible that he could ever accept or impossible he could ever reject a situation that is roughly the same thing is like. i just don't think you can definitively say either of those things! both of those contradictory things are in character!! what about the human heart in conflict with itself you guys used to love the human heart in conflict with itself...

i love having ace friends. they enrich my life so much

good morning ace people of all stripes i hope you’re having a good day. if you are also aro i hope you find $20 on the ground