i am saving your place

joseph jude deauna,

i refuse to say too much, because this isn't a goodbye. neither one of us is going anywhere.

rather, this is a thank you.

thank you, my love

for all the kisses

for all the times you called me beautiful

for the times you let me fall asleep in your arms

for all the times you stayed up late to comfort me in my times of need

for all the times you told me you loved me

for all the times we frolicked around emmanuel and fenway

for all the times you tickled me even though i swore to god i'd dislocate your balls for it

for all the times we cuddled

for all the times you introduced me to your friends as your girlfriend

for the time we went on our roadtrip

for the time we went to canobie

for the time you promised me.

for telling the world you were proud to have me as your girlfriend

for supporting me

for loving me

in the past four years whether we were dating or not, you were always there for me, even though sometimes you liked to pretend you weren't.

joseph jude torres deauna II, this summer,  you gave me a forever within the numbered days, and i'm so fucking grateful.

you may see this, you may not see this right away. but that's okay. you'll get your going away letter soon enough.