some call it hell, others know it simply as the place where our burdens gather.
the ailments we carry are cruel things. twisted, relentless, and undeserved. yet they cling to us all the same.
though the world may flinch at our existence, you have a place at this fire, provided you are of rightful age.
here, we walk together through the mire, seeking the safest paths through the suffering that haunts us.
we offer companionship in the dark. hands extended, lanterns raised. so none must stumble alone through the night.
this community can offer support and understanding, but it can’t replace professional care. if you’re dealing with any mental or physical health issues, please reach out to trained professionals who can give you the help you deserve.
TURN BACK NOW IF YOU ARE NOT YET OF AGE your path lies elsewhere, and you will find companions suited to your years. i am not the guardian you seek, and this hall is not meant for you. go with care, and keep yourself safe beyond these doors.
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hi, forest here.
this is a sheddingblr with vampire aesthetic content, weirdness, and odd things. i sometimes rant about depressino, sui, and other mental‑health topics, but anything graphic is always hidden behind a TW. i will never post my SH or anything similarly graphic. this space matters.you deserve a place to vent, and i’m here for that. TWs (especially for SH & SA) are appreciated.
this blog is 18+ only. if i haven’t followed you back within 24–48 hours, it’s probably because your age isn’t listed or your likes/following are NOT hidden. i block ageless or underage blogs. you’ll find your people elsewhere, i’m not them.
DNI & GTFO if you are:
• a minor (i asked nicely already)
• any lgbtqia+ phobic of any kind
• ableist
• racist
• fatphobic
• have stupid opinions about homelessness and people in poverty
please feel free to message me or ask anything.:) i'd love to chat.
i strongly support recovery. but do not follow if you're in recovery, this is not a recovery blog, i do hope to be there someday though.
i do not think any disorder that can kill you is glamorous. they are all hell, incredibly debilitating and fkn horrible.
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i CANNOT and WILL NOT give advice or tips
harm reduction only
i do not condone or encourage this for anyone.
i edit a lot of my posts due to dyslexia and just not liking how i word things a lot.
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decent bday today, first one in a good few years lol. even though i had to go to a doctors appointment in the morning. and, i had a terrible sleep because my brain decided to give me some fun and fresh flashbacks at 1AM.
i opened the present from midnight… oh my gosh ya’ll. so many cute and thoughtful little gifts in there. i’ll upload pics when i have the energy.
gonna make the gallagher household on the sims and rest for the rest of the day. 🖤🩸
just in case my 2 or 3 dedicated moots are wondering… no i have not yet opened the present from midnight. i am waiting for my actual bday. only less than 48hrs to go now! :/ c: :/
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screams into the void about my mental health and current struggle. 🩸
now that i am at one of the lowest points in my life in regards to my mental health, i am hoping for the kindness and good karma i put out there to others in their times of need will be returned. but i know that cannot be forced.
i am obsessively clean usually. when i have had roommates over the years i would always keep the house in perfect order and always have meals cooked for them, even on days where i was working. they often felt too bad to get out of bed for hours.
i never let myself get outwardly frustrated at them. when i would internally, i would remind myself that i have been that bad before and i likely will again. all that person needs is understanding, unconditional love, encouragement and time and they will get back on track. someone has to keep the ship afloat.
now i am all alone. this is the longest time i’ve lived alone in all of my adult years. and i am not doing well at all. its codependency, i know, but i miss having a reason to keep going.
my house is a god damn pit. i am incredibly depressed and unable to do basic self care and tidying some days. i have been falling behind on drinking water, let alone my nutrition. i’ve always been good with my hydration. not right now i guess…
i wish every day for that kindness to be returned to me, but no one is here to help.
i slowly every day do whatever i can but it’s piling up and getting harder every day. i need my routine but i can’t even keep up with that.
on Friday, i had the worst day of flashbacks i have had in a long time, without nightmares to begin the day at least. i was shaking and crying on the floor. i barely moved around. i lost so much time. visions all around me, all day. me yelling aloud and begging for it to stop. lost in a world in the past with or without my eyes closed all day. outside of the flashbacks, every painful thing that could come up in my mind did.
i feel so alone. having my mothership emotionally and verbally abusing me every other day or week is taking its toll now that i am alone.
i am still waiting for help medically at the moment. waiting lists, referrals. i just wish i had friends that could help me. i wish it wasn’t weird to ask for help just once with household stuff.
looking at all this mess just fills me with shame and self hatred up over and over again. how could i let it get this bad? this is so painful and disgusting.
i’m turning 27 in a few days and i just feel like a failure 24/7.
is there hope for me? will this ever turn around? what do i do?
