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#tw: sui#tw: ed#tw: drugs#tonight after one of the worst work days this week#I got drunk and high at the same time and#Thought too long about where I am vs where Iβd like to be#and now am overcome with sadness and a desire to kms#but also Iβm so at peace with the idea of not being here#And that worries me because I know thatβs like sign number 1 youβre gonna do it is that it doesnβt scare you anymore#And sign number two is like loss of appetite and let me tell you my ed is back#so Iβve had a hard time eating at all but no one priced because Iβm still fucking fat#And alsoβ¦ none of that bothers me#because the idea of dying sounds so peaceful also. like finally getting a break.#and like I want to talk to someone about how contradictory it is to be the saddest youβve been in years#And also the happiest at the same time.#anyway you neednβt worry Iβm not doing anything#But if it happened I wouldnβt be mad.#Anyway I hope I feel like eating tomorrow#personal#text#shut up chloe
