— For the love of Fitz — “Tallyho””You’re Cracked”

I also feel like if I went to the doctors about it they wouldn’t care or believe me since I’m not anorexic, my weight is fine occasionally people will say that my face looks thinner but that’s nothing, my weight is fine. My eating habits are so terrible, though I’ll admit that. I can’t eat more than one meal a day but since my weight isn’t a concern I don’t think the doctors would care. Dr Joshi didn’t care or believe me about my depression, so why would they believe me about this

I’ve applied to so many apprenticeships, too, but I can’t apply to certain ones because they use recruitment companies that I didn’t get back to in the past when I was a somehow more depressed piece of shit. I cancelled some but then others I remember just not showing up without cancelling and I have no idea which recruitment companies are which. I also gave up an apprentice opportunity at the hospital for a program that was suppose to help me build my confidence in the workplace but it’s literally the opposite of what they told me. I genuinely thought that this program would have been better in the long term but nope, and now I’ve ruined my chances of finding an apprenticeship via the nhs.