Lost

It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I feel like my vocabulary has deteriorated significantly that I can’t even think of the right word/term for some of the things I’m saying here.

Since I started my new work, I’ve been super busy as I became outgoing than before, mostly because I can fund myself better than now than when I was at my old job. I’ve been looking forward to going out some more but then the virus happened, and quarantine got me stuck at home :(

But hey, I’m living with my boyfriend now so it’s not half bad! We get to annoy and entertain each other, the perfect way to distract ourselves when things outside get too serious, or if we get stressed because of work.

So it started off at their Elyxion concert, I was watching CBX's Ka-Ching stage (I clearly remember this as Minseok was dancing around in that black sleeveless top for that performance). After that, the scene was changed into an awards show or something, there was a big stage in front of us and we're sitting in the first row. The seating arrangement was something like this based from my memory:

First row: Exo member-Jongdae-Me-Someone else-Jongin

Second row: Exo member-Junmyeon-F(x)'s Krystal-F(x) member

It started off well, I've been conversing with Jongin the whole time even if there's another person between us. However, he started getting worked up when he saw Krystal and was ranting to me how people were against their relationship. I think he was saying, "how come even the people who don't love me accepted it, while those around her didn't?" He ranted for a loooooong time and his voice kept getting louder as his frustration grows, his whole body facing me while he was still sitting. I started caressing his arms and pushed him softly back to his seat to calm him down a little, telling him he should relax a bit and we'd talk about it again later.

Junmyeon then told me to stop stressing about it and started massaging my left hand, pressing my fingers one by one. Jongdae also joined him in massaging my hand, so now I got two members holding my left hand how the hell did that happen?? I remembered thinking about how brave I was, talking to Exo members and touching them even when there are fans around. Ha!

After that, they won an award. People started telling me to look at Jongin. Apparently, he ruined his clothes (he was wearing the cropped top he used for his solo performance at Elyxion), and then put scotched tape to put it back together. I was so amused by what he did but also concerned.

I can't remember much of the dream as I kept waking up and going back to sleep, which led me to forget a whole lot of it. I just remembered we just met and had the chance to bond (with other mutual friends), and I noticed how he'll hug me every chance he gets (when we were being chaotic and a mess). It felt innocent though, not like he was creepy while doing it or trying to touch something else. He seems very huggable and I would very much like to hug him in real life given the chance lol.

These thoughts intensify everyday as I keep learning new things about them, about all the things they went through when they were basically just rookies and even before they debuted. Another thing was me reading about their future enlistment and how it will take years before they will be able to promote as a whole group again after that.

why is minseok always ready to fight baekhyun