The Dimple Diaries

Across across the country, across the world, wherever, just know that someone loves and misses you. If you ever feel alone, or lost for a minute, just know that someone is thinking of you. If life ever gets out of hand and you feel helpless, just know that someone would do anything to make things right for you. Wherever life takes you, just know that someones heart holds a home for you. Always. 

I’m a firm believer in the saying “If things are meant to be, they’ll be” After countless struggles and rough patches, it was difficult to let the man I love cut ties with me because I have never invested so much love into one person. As time passed, I came to the reality that life goes on despite the shitty things life throws at us. But before we knew it, we were back in each others lives. It was almost as if we had never left each others side. We’ve spent the last few months doing nothing but spending quality time together and loving one another. It was known that in just a few short weeks he’d be leaving to study abroad and I thought my heart could take it. But the time has come where he’s packed his bags and is heading across the world. I spent a while crying because crying lets the sadness out. But today as he held me and told me everything was going to be alright and that he loves me and he’ll see me when I get back, it was a whirlwind of emotion. Part of me is sad because I won’t see him for 5 months. A few Skype sessions or conversations over Facebook perhaps to check in, but I won’t be able to hold him, or sleep beside him or kiss him good night. Another part of me is happy for him because he’s finally getting to see part of the world and travel, which is what he’s always wished and hoped for. I’m also happy because he accomplished this himself. He’s worked hard to get where he wants to be, and he’s finally making some dreams come true all on his own. I wish nothing but great things to happen within these 5 months for him. He deserves endless happiness. I’m glad that more people will get to know him and appreciate him for all he is worth. He’s got a tough shell, but a soft heart for those he truly cares about. He’s got a sense of humor that many may not appreciate but I hope he finds friends to laugh at his jokes as hard as I do. His laugh is like music to my ears, I’d do anything to hear it over and over again, so I hope he meets people who can make him laugh and they can have the opportunity to hear such genuine happiness. 5 months isn’t a long time compared to 10 months, or several years. Time will pass and thoughts of each other may come and go. Before we know it, 5 months will have passed and I’ll finally be able to squeeze his face again. But like I’ve said before, if it’s meant to be it’ll be. And if we’ve come this far in loving each other, I don’t doubt that it’s possible to pick up right where we left off when we’re back together again. I loved you then, I love you still. I always have, I always will.