HIRAETH

I found him, my person.

He’s anything and everything I could ask for, so loving and caring but you can also be so cold.

The kind of cold that makes me wonder if you even love me,

You were with some other girl for quite some time and when you tell me things about her I can understand why she fell over some things,

But you’re to precious to let go.

im convinced you’re the love of my life, the way you look at me sometimes or how you talk about me shows me you really care.

i know I can be a mess sometimes and be quite a handfull, but in a way you know just how to handle me.

we have our fights about both our pasts but were learning how to manage those situations, we have things we need to handle , yet im not worried bc I know well get out of it.

my mind cant understand where it went wrong, we seemed so happy. Everyone saw the signs except for me. in the first week my mother warned me, you reminded her of her narcisist ex boyfriend. It took me 3 years to figure that out.

you hurt me deeper than anyone else. The moment i felt your hand touch my cheek i knew it had to be over. but i gave you another chance.

yet you threw that away also, the circle seemed complete. You showed regret for what you did. Said it wasnt you and you dont remember. But only a few weeks later you did the exact same again.

im convinced you’re the love of my life, the way you look at me sometimes or how you talk about me shows me you really care.

i know I can be a mess sometimes and be quite a handfull, but in a way you know just how to handle me.

we have our fights about both our pasts but were learning how to manage those situations, we have things we need to handle , yet im not worried bc I know well get out of it.

my mind cant understand where it went wrong, we seemed so happy. Everyone saw the signs except for me. in the first week my mother warned me, you reminded her of her narcisist ex boyfriend. It took me 3 years to figure that out.

you hurt me deeper than anyone else. The moment i felt your hand touch my cheek i knew it had to be over. but i gave you another chance.

yet you threw that away also, the circle seemed complete. You showed regret for what you did. Said it wasnt you and you dont remember. But only a few weeks later you did the exact same again.

im convinced you’re the love of my life, the way you look at me sometimes or how you talk about me shows me you really care.

i know I can be a mess sometimes and be quite a handfull, but in a way you know just how to handle me.

we have our fights about both our pasts but were learning how to manage those situations, we have things we need to handle , yet im not worried bc I know well get out of it.

My monsters weren't in my closet

they were in the kitchen

the living room

the bedroom

they watched me go to school in the mornings

and i tiptoed around them at night

it's hard to feel safe in the world