I need to use all my vacation days by the end of the year, so I’m trying to plan them out. But I also have this irrational instinctual superstition that taking days off is bad luck, and that something awful will happen if I do
I know tumblr is not my personal journal but I’m not in therapy right now, so fuck it. bulleted list
I won’t book an actual vacation because I just don’t do that. That sounds like a waste of money and rich people behavior
So any vacation days would just mean me sitting around at home waiting for something bad to happen
Things that have happened when I’ve taken time off in the past: grandpa died, aunt’s dog died, brother in hospital, mom in hospital
But I fully get that vacation time is part of my compensation. Like I would never tell my job they can just keep part of my paycheck.
At the same time I was raised to believe that you never ever take off work unless you absolutely need to. Because we’re lucky to have jobs and we have to work as hard as possible.
Missing work also stresses me tf out so a day off doesn’t even feel like a break to me. I also work with whiny ppl who bother me when I’m off anyway.
