a blanket lain for two

are you ok? i promised you i would check in every day and today i haven't heard i almost threw up my tequila sunrise tonight why did i even order that? in my panic over you i sent out a text and received no response from someone else who... fuck. from someone else who. i don't know what's going on i love you and i miss you and i tell you that regularly you live so close i can hear your tv through the door and yet i see your face less than i do the dishes you have to be ok you're alright i know you are i know this is overreacting i know this is my brain in overdrive i don't know if i believe in god but for god's sake i'm praying i'll knock on your door tomorrow and pray you answer pray i wake up to some text telling me i'm a lunatic i am a lunatic but don't fucking do this to me i can't sleep i can't breathe my other friends made me dance tonight and i secretly did because i knew if this worse were true it would be the last time i danced in a while don't scare me like this please for fucking christ's sake, i'm begging you.