I need a break; I need a shake.

Good frenz betta dan pocket $$ #OURFav (at Ocho Rios, Jamaica)

I. AM. BACK.

24. #BirthdayGirl

I really do love the twinkle that I see in my eyes whenever I laugh or smile☺️ #TGIF #WorkFlow #UpnOut #BirthdayInAFew #ScorpioBaby #Smile #Breathe #Relax #JustBeHappii thanks for the laugh @alsellars

So I woke up not too long ago and before I knew it I was feeling depress(like I always have been-for the past month or so). I hopped on fb scrolling down reading a few ppl posts, this one in particular appealed to me the most, "A word to those who's faith is shaken ..I know sometimes we go through stuff in life & we begin to start questioning, is there really a God..but there is a God and he's alive just trust in him all the wayyyy, cry to him make him your first priority and u will see he's a miracle working God..God bless you all..#1 love. Happy sunday." After reading it tears immediately fell from my eyes. How do you connect with someone you've lost the connection with? months maybe even years ago. Truth is when I woke up I didn't feel blessed, I didn't feel deserving of this life(I still don't). I thought to myself why am I awake? Why couldn't someone else who craves life so much got another chance? Why couldn't my childhood friend father be alive at this moment and not me? Maybe in some way I DO despise life because of the failures and setbacks, I don't feel like I can do "This thing called 'Life' " anymore. Suicidal??? Somewhat. Can I do it??? No. Because in some way I haven't given up on life, but neither am I happy about it. I feel like I don't know how to connect with God anymore, praying has become sooooo hard that when I think about doing it I just burst into tears. I've lost my way with him ages ago and I know that maybe in some way he hasn't given up on me like I might have with him. *Maybe I'm not making much sense here* .... but, life has me messed up real bad.

#GoodMorningIG today's mantra #OwnIt #Life #Everything 👌💪👊🙌✌️

#GetUp #GetOut #MakeItHappen #WednesdaysMotivation #HappiiHumpDay #LetsDoThis! 📝🔃🚫🏆💯

🎶Your woman on the road, she doing promo You said keep our business on the low-low I'm just tryna get you out the friend-zone Cause you look even better than the photos I can't find your house, send me the info Driving through the gated residential Found out I was coming, sent your friends home Keep on tryna hide it but your friends know🎶 #No2MondayMorningBlues #LetsKickStartItRight #Music #MusicISLife #HowIFeel #HeKnows #AbelXox #TheWeeknd #HisMusicGivesMeLife #TheHills @abelxox

#Had2Post. I am really missing my weights😩 Know the difference ladies. Even better when we're good at both😏💁 #FitChicks #Squats #Strenght #Weightliffing #Kickout #FitAndFancy

Some of you are literally addicted to toxicity. 💀 Always people watching hoping to see the next stumble or fall so that it can make you feel better about your own shortcomings. C'mon now! If you were as invested in your own life's as you are in other peoples business you would be a lot happier! #IDontLiveLikeThat I don't worry about what the next person is doing if it's not harming anyone. We have to do better than this. #BeTheChange #Love✌️#RadiatePositiveVibration