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I have not had a lot of time recently to blog about my special intrests , which saddens me , but I have come back with a cheeky blog with pictures of my dogs and beautiful purple bird !

Purple bird with Poppy and Herrta , my three sweet peas .

Purple bird at lake . So beautiful , so inspiring !

Now to go on about my usual yipper and yammering !

Plus Junkrat is so fun to play ! His playstyle is so fast paced , it leaves me with little time to think , and it fits so perfectly into my needs for mental stimulation !

Hihihi thirty four followers ! ! ! ! !

I have so little time to indulge in my Ramattra blog , it saddens me that I don't get to indulge in my special intrests as much as I'd like to . Moving and renovating takes a lot of time , a lot of patience , and a whole lot of energy . Soon , I will be back to yammering nonsense about Ramattra ! I already have a cheeky Ramattra and Viktor blog planned out !

Today , I have come to speak about Ramattra ( like always . . . I lowk don't talk about anything else on here . . ) !

I have come to the conclusion that I am deeply in love with his early concept art , when it was leaning into the shepherd look .

I am deeply fascinated with the look of these designs , especially the one to the right ! I love the solemn , heavy feeling the right one has . It is a little unsettling in different ways , and yet it somehow evokes such a soothing feeling within . It is so beautiful ! I like it !

But , at the end of the day , I am really content with his final design ! I think it is quite pretty , and his colour palate is very eays on the eyes . I love !

Ouhhhh . . . My beautiful purple bird . . . Ouhhhh I love you beautiful purple bird . . . You shall adorn my wall beautiful purple bird . . .

Hii hello thirty-one followers ! ! ! !

I love Ramattra and majority of his interactions , BUT the one where he quite simply brushes Junkrat off with " You are not a journalist . " almost makes me the tiniest bit sad :-( Junkrat can be rather obnoxious , but man's just asking questions ( in a manner that can be perceived as rude . . . ) ! I still loive them both , so lowk , it is okay . I love Ramattra , he is so clever !

Yesterday , I spoke about Moira and hobbies I think she'd enjoy , and it made me think about Ramattra !

I firmly belive Ramattra would enjoy ceramics . I think he'd enjoy throwing ceramics because of the controlled , yet incredibly unpredictable nature of clay and creating with it ! Maybe he'd enjoy getting to work and cooperate with the clay , instead of controlling and working against it .

I could also see him creating clay sculptures ! Perhaps he'd sculpt busts of people he admire , of people he has lost , of people he want to honour and remember .

In another timeline , where things are calmer and he has found peace within himself , I think he'd be an artist of some sort . Lowk I have nothing more intelligent to say now , i just really love Ramattra hes my beautiful purple bird 👅

Recently ( as in the past few months . . ) I've been on my Moira arc ! I love her character a lot , I think it is nice to see different kinds of " bad guys " with different motives and backstories . But that is not what I have been thinking about ! I think Moira would be a woman to appreciate art and different kinds of perfomances , like dance , opera , and figure skating , en kulturdam in other words !

I might be out cycling , but I think she'd even engage in dance and figure skating every once in a while . Like a hobby from her younger years that she occasionally indulges in when she has free time !

I really could imagine Moira finding love and happiness within figure skating . Prancing across the ice with elegant , controlled movements , blooming out in long , slow routines !

THEY BUFFED RAMATTRA ! ! ! ! ! RAMATTRA HAS BEEN BUFFED 🗣 🗣 🗣 🗣

While it is only a mild buff ( reduced void barrier cooldown , 13 down to 12 seconds , increased annihilation damage from 30 to 35 . ) I will take whatever I get with grace . I do really think the slight buff to his annihilation will be great , it will hopefully make the outdrawn fights easier to win ! ! !

I am so joyous and filled with so much joy ! So happy and so excited to play more Ramattra !

My back aches , my spike cracks each time I take a deep breath , my shoulder blades are rigid and sore . Crack my spine !

I have been looking at the Ramattra bust statue , and I must say it is quite pretty ! One day , I will acquire it , and it will stand in the corner of my bedroom , or perhaps in my livingroom ! ! ! !

I am " renovating " my room soon and decorating it , I am very honestly considering getting a print of the gif above to hang on my wall . Sadly , I do not think it would fit in very well with the rest of the paintings , since they are old , beautiful paintings of nude women . :-(

For the past few days I have been working on a very long blog ! I am still working on it , it is so fun to write about my interests once more ! ! !

Today I thought about Ramattra again . I've been so curious to see what they are going to do with him in stadium ! It will be so fun to develop new playstyles , new techniques , and see what people will do with him !

Hopefully , him being in stadium will enable me to play him even weirder than I already do . I love playing him weirdly and heavily leaning into his weaknesses . It confuses people and makes it easier for me to win !

Today I ate three eggs for breakfast . I love eggs ! So yummy !

I have been listening to " futile devices " quite a lot recently , and in some way , it deeply reminds me of Ramattra . I can not quite explain what it is about the song that makes me think of Ramattra , it just does ! Maybe it is the part " And I'd say I love you , but saying it out loud is hard , so I won't say it all . " , but I'm not sure .

I have yet to watch the film the song comes from , but I have heard the " is it better to speak or to die ? " and I think about it rather often . Most of the time , I think Ramattra would speak . I do not think he is a man to stay quiet about his feelings , his views , his mind overall , he surely does seem to take his place and stand for his views , even when backlash is faced . I think he would be the same when it comes to feelings , but I might be out cycling !

Personally , my stance leans very heavily towards to speak . Many opportunities go wasted because one is too afraid to speak .

I think you always gain by speaking . Wether the conversation ends in your favour or not , you have gained a new experience , a new memory , and a new reference point to go of off in the future .

Conversations about queer romance are incredibly tough for me to have , but if I never spoke my mind , never took that leap of faith , I would never grow and change as an individual . Besides , sometimes speaking will lead to incredibly beautiful , blossoming relations you would otherwise have missed out on !

I looked through all the Ramattra sprays and saw this one , I thought it was ridiculously cute ! I like his little reindeer ears and his scarf ! I also like the name "ramistletoe " , it is rather silly .

I recently got his valentine's voice line in a lootbox and I have never been happier :-) I think it is such a sweet , sentimental little line . Short and sweet ! I've wanted it since I started playing Ramattra , so so so happy to finally have it ! ! ! ! !

I have no intelligent ideas to share tonight , I just really like Ramattra !

I might be lying my arse off , but I have always seen Ramattra as an individual with undying loyalty to whatever cause he fights for , unwavering loyalty and devotion to the people he deeply cherish . Not in the sense of loud gestures , big , grand fights , and such , but much rather silent , resilient loyalty , and deeply rooted passion stemming from within his soul . Quiet actions that carry heavy weight , small acts of endearment , of devotion . That is , of course , not to say he is a silent individual , he seems to be quite outspoken about what he stands for and his feelings on many different matters !

I have always loved , deeply cherished his " I will break before I yield . " , it is incredibly dear to me ! I have lost the spark I once had , the energy to fight for my own rights as a disabled t-dude , I have grown quieter , become docile like a sweet puppy , but I have not yielded . I still silently argue and fight for myself , for my friends , for my brother . I have yet to be broken , and until someone manages to completely diminish my light , I will not yield .

Beautiful purple bird , you are a lantern of hope , a beacon of light !

Hiii twenty - five followers ! ! ! ! ! !

I just got my Moira commission so I am ABSOLUTELY TWEAKING JAG KOMMER ATT BÖRJA KLÅ PÅ MIG SJÄLV ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

I work in my local churches a little on and off , and despite being an atheist , I find incredibly creative inspiration from within churches and the community that stems from it ! I am hoping to get to work a service and help during a communion someday so I can learn how to write prayers in dialogue , create religious imagery in my writing , and work in religious undertones in what I create !

Yuh . . . Time for Ramattra fanfiction with ( non specified ) religious undertones and imagery . . . I love you , religious undertones and imagery Ramattra fanfiction . . . You are so dear to me , even though I am deeply unbeliving and an atheist through and through . . .

On the same page of creative inspiration coming from churches , I have always wanted to create a photography project surrounding churches . Now , I have been offered the resources to make it reality ! I have permission to free roam my local churches during closed hours and photograph whatever I'd like ! I will get help through the church to officially publish my photos , and even get my photography a exhibition . I am absolutely tweaking , I have always wanted to get out my photography to people , and now I am going to get help to put my photography in a whole exhibition ! ! ! ! ! ! I have never been this excited for something before . :-)

I have earlier posted my photography on here , but not a whole project . That is exactly what I would like to do this time !

A very small project , but one that is very dear to me ;

" Sunlight , sorrow "

The dock . The same dock where my Ukki taught me to fish . I can still recall the scent of his tobacco pipe from those distant childhood days .

The wash room . I used to dislike washing up here , slowly , with time I grew to love washing up with the help of buckets and scoops , I perfected the art of mixing the water to the perfect temperature as I grew up .

The woodshed . It scared me when I was a wee thing . The spiders , the dark nooks and crannies with ghosts . I am grateful it is there now , it allows me the pleasure of hot water and steaming sauna sessions late at night .

The lake . The soft ripples moving across the lake , disturbing the previous stillness of the lake as I float in the cool water , waking up with the sun itself .

I can not lie , I do not think it makes much sense to anyone else . But that is okay ! It is about the guilt of losing ones own culture , being displaced from ones own culture and heritage , and the sorrow that comes from losing touch with ones own culture and heritage . Yay ! I am kind of insane , I really do not think any of this makes sense !

Hiii hello twentythree ( ! ! ! ! ! ! )

I am a huge fan of Ramattra , but Moira as well ! I think they are both beautifully written characters , with interesting lore , and very intriguing motives for their vastly different futures !

Ramattra has always been a beacon of light to me , a lantern of hope for change , for a better future for ones own people . Absolutely with some questionable choices and radical views , but nonetheless a beacon of light , of hope !

He carries a heavy weight simply by existing as the individual he strives to be . I think he is a beautiful , deeply fascinating character !

Moira is not often described as a beacon of light , a lantern of hope , but to me , she deeply is . When I was younger , before I got sick , I dreamt of revolutionizing pediatric psychiatric medicine , and that whole field .

I dreamt of late nights spent within a lab , days filled with patient interviews and seminars loaded with new knowledge , I dreamt of debates with other scientists , long nights of studying and writing research papers .

I wanted to be like Moira , to put it simply . A vastly different motive in mind , drastically differentiating ethics and morals , but the same dreams she once carried . So , to me , Moira is very dear .

I also think she is kinda of pretty with her grey hair !

I originally wanted this to be a shit blog , but I got carried away :-(

Today is Valentines day and my blog is just dedicated to Ramattra , so I am going to speak about Ramattra and Valentines day :-)

I do not think Ramattra is someone who celebrates Valentines very loud or big , maybe a small gesture of care , of devotion , but never anything extravagant . Partly because I do not think Ramattra is much for love and romance , but too because I think he does not always celebrate the " conventional " holidays !

Maybe he'd spend time with a companion , a friend he keeps close to his heart . Share a silent moment together , watch the stars ( like he speaks of doing with Zenyatta ) , and maybe a chaste embrace . Something short and sweet , to show his dedication , his love for another being !

Happy valentine's day to all my mutuals that I am way too scared to interact with . I hope you all have an amazing day with lots of beautiful times ! < 3