This is a vent blog. Reporting only makes me worse. just block me.
I'm kris, they/them. I'm a fictive (take a wild guess who), bodily we're 21, white and chronically ill. This is my personal blog to talk about the bad shit.
I have eating issues (resembling ana-r and arfid), self harming thoughts, source trauma, source dysphoria and probably a whole bunch of other shit that I'm not gonna spell out for you
I'm pro recovery. if you're in recovery or want to recover block me for your own wellbeing. I'm just not ready for it yet. and reporting my blog won't make me stop. I use tags to find other people who get it not to promote.
I post daily logs and what I lost every friday, in between all that it'll mostly just be venting or talking about whatever.
triggering shit below the cut
Our current plan is to lose as much as we can without worrying my headmate's girlfriend too much and when we get to 50kg start slowly increasing our intake have a year or two of recomposition eating at maintenance while our skin tightens and we build some muscle.
Stats:
Height: 5'2" ish
HW: 108.2kg / 238lbs (16/01/2026)
CW: 71.7kg / 158lbs (25/07/2026)
Total Lost: 36.5kg / 80lbs (6 months since HW)
BMR: 1436kcal ← this stops me from freaking out too much about eating above our limit.
WL Goals:
GW1: 100kg, buy deltarune (06/03/2026)
GW2: 85kg, red contacts (15/05/2026)
GW3: 75kg, the reward is not being obese anymore (10/07/2026)
GW4: 65kg, get ears pierced
GW4.5: 62.3kg by october, healthy bmi, low restriction halloween
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We've been camping today. it's been great for our brain and body to finally fucking relax but we ate so much today. my headmates wouldn't even let me count the smore we had cause it was too whimsical to be numbers or whatever
Steps: 8,187 /10,000
Intake: 1650 /1210
Active: -513
Resting: -1663
Total: -526
Daily Goals:
Food:
Stay in cal limit, take multivitamins, 2L of water, no takeout
This sounds insane to ppl who aren’t disordered but my biggest insecurity is how big my ass is. Like my ass and thighs r so huge compared to the rest of my body but i h8 it so much i feel so fat especially since when im sitting i can barely see any of my body other than my thighs
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We had a lot of all or nothing type thoughts today and acted on them a lot more than I like but whatever. my headmates are too willing to eat normally to avoid worrying our girlfriend more with everything she's already going through.
Morning Weight: 69.9kg
Steps: 10,000 /10,000
Intake: 1533 /1210
Active: -685
Resting: -1663
Total: -815
Daily Goals:
Food:
Stay in cal limit, take multivitamins, 2L of water, no takeout
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So we lost 4.5kg in a bit over a week, we didn't fail any day and walked at least 10k steps all but 1 day. It wasn't difficult but the high restriction started making us feel quite weak by the end
It seems very effective at dealing with bloating and any water weight gained from eating normally but it may work best if it's been multiple days of normal eating instead of a one off binge day.
