Stupid Boy with Stupid Ideas

hope is a skill

hope is a weapon you are trained to wield

im going to fix my entire life

youtube creators used to make videos and upload them just because they wanted to whenever they wanted to but now if a bunch of good creators upload at once it's almost definitely just because it's deadline day for their sponsorship and all of them do the same ad read too. get that bag but man it is a little bit depressing to see

I regularly hear youtube creators mention offhand something like "I don't have anything to say, but the algorithm penalises intros that aren't long enough... anyway..." at the start of their videos. Video length, style and pacing can't be based on their best creative judgement or they'll drown on the platform. It's gotta fit whatever the current algorithm formula is and be designed to minimise the chances of random demonetisation. I wish they could be free. I wish to hear their own minds and hearts once more. Alas.

unconvinced i'll ever find "the vitamin" that makes me all better so i can get real work done but i do expect they'll elucidate whatever my deal was post-mortem, after which what i did manage to accomplish with my life will be regarded on the level of Beethoven composing despite being deaf or Gordon Ramsay cooking despite being british