That Mic Chic

No matter what I say

No matter what I do

I will never be enough

Never enough for you

Day in and day out

I try with my all

If I could just get you to notice me

You'll never pick me

I'm starting to see that now

Even though

Time and time again

I let you back in

Sometimes

Sometimes I see a shimmer of hope

But I guess that just the light refracting

From the tears I try not to cry

I don't know how I can continue

How do I continue to play it cool?

How do I continue to allow you to crush my heart without you knowing?

How could I have made myself enough for you?

But for now I guess I will sit in quiet

And be that friend who never leaves your side

That friend that is there for you everytime

The friend that helps pick you up when some girl doesn't love you

And I'll sit here loving you with more than you know

More than I have ever loved someone

But what else do I have to do

You're all I have..

When will I finally decide I have had enough? Or even, when will I decide that this isn't enough?

I'm tired of not feeling like any of my efforts are going towards anything. No matter what I say or do, I feel unwanted. I feel like the few times you talk to me anymore are just done so you can say you did.

When will I be enough? When will someone finally want to stay? How can I fix myself?