D a z e 🌦️

TLDR ; courage is doing something even when you're scared :)

i admit most of the time I have no idea what the fuck I'm doing. tbh i don't any of us do or people hide it quite well

whether you're trying to exist as yourself, doing what you love, saying no/yes to people it will ALWAYS feel overwhelming at first. courage isn't having enough plans, skills or self improvement. You will never feel ready to be yourself or make life changes because changing yourself or your life takes getting familiar with something unknown. unknown is what causes the fear. don't wait until you shut down and want to quit life

when i was in highschool, i could only talk to my teachers and draw to not talk to people. i'd be safe from getting close to anyone. however, i felt incredibly lonely and hopeless. it's only when i push myself to try talking to people as a cashier (screw retail ugh) i got used to talking to people. over the years, i got good at it. i still get flustered, but i can talk to anyone.

same goes for trying again. many people have hurt me. i could choosen to close my heart and be a chameleon, but i try again because i'd make better decision going into each new situation

it's ok to not know what you're doing, to feel overwhelmed, messy, intimidated, frustrated and want to quit. you're gonna make a lot of mistakes in life and that's ok. what matters is

you keep going

hi friends!

i've been completing "cookie the movie" in the background. note, this was a old friend project (the script & most oc do not belong to me). i drew 750 panels in 2021. i feel proud. still taking it slow, but probably post parts on DA when i'm ready. creating something is worth it. even if no one sees it, it's yours. it's real. i was terrified and i made shit happen. that's such an incredible feeling. („• ֊ •„)

blasting my headphones louder than my stupid thoughts has been helping me push forward up this mountain. i love music so much lol 🎵