thaliaaa

oh but i forget not everybody experienced things like that~ i did !!!! and now im stuck in this hellish place where i cant even stop being verbal!! when nonverbal !!

and even then, if they lived~ why would i think they'd be fundamentally incapable of harm still? why would i think they wouldn't discard me the moment i didn't participate in joint cruelty with them?

ohhh but i did think one thing while nearly immobilized there!! and it's that i sure am doing a lot of gymnastics trying to justify why i'm still really well-off. because like. at least i get to be completely alone while being immobilized!! at least i get to have privacy while suffering from profound medical neglect. among the many other neglects. it's better than suffering from profound medical neglect in the midst of medical workers who would only really like to humiliate me if they ever get to interact with me at all isn't it~

i keep seeing that fucking everywhere too. everytime oppression that isn't transmisogyny is being written, the writer Always distances themselves from being remotely capable of doing it. and like can you Not. i don't give a shit about how it's used as a dogwhistle it's used as a dogwhistle against me too you fucking prick, and worst of all you're perfectly capable of wielding the same shit in conjunction against me. so like. will you not do gymnastics to distance yourself from admitting your own capacity for harm. pretty please. can you be my sister too pretty please

i love it even more when one of the replies is like. a green name telling the blocked ppl to fuck themselves. tells me it's working perfectly~